Not Sad

I found out today that the sperm donor (my biological father) died on March 17.  According to my mom, who heard it from Helmut’s nephew, he was in the hospital and delirious.  She said something about him living his life in the past or something.

I wish I could be sad.  Wait, I take that back.  I don’t wish I could be sad.  Fuck him.  I’m glad that he died before I had Lily so he couldn’t claim to be a grandfather to my child.

I’ll probably confirm with Klaus (his brother, my godfather).  I’m a little surprised that Klaus hasn’t mentioned it to me in one of his emails.

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May 26, 2012

I’m sorry… well, I guess if you hated him then I’m not sorry. Just seems like what you say when someone dies. I hate my dad so I can kind of understand what you mean. ryn- I turned the bottle upside down and did two circles around the washing machine.real scientific, I know- But I actually got that measurement from online. lol It worked so I guess I did it right. There’s a water softener called Calgon I’m going to buy to throw in with the diapers. It’s supposed to help. Bleach helps too, depending on the type of diaper you have.

May 26, 2012
May 26, 2012
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May 26, 2012
May 27, 2012
May 27, 2012

ryn: I’ve only done it on clothes/changing pad covers, nothing stuck in place like carpet. I moisten the poopy area (leave it dry until you are ready to clean, I find if it gets wet ahead of time it is much harder to clean) and then add almost as much dish soap as there is poop, and then rub it in using the fabric as friction. Generally the poop just disappears and I’m done. Sometimes that doesn’twork straight away so after that stage I rinse completely and then wet the dirty area with a bit of oxyclean (I think it is about a tbsp or maybe a bit more in 16oz of water. I mix it up in a 32oz bottle so there is space for mixing, and use that for days until it is gone) and let that sit for a minute or two, as long as it needs. Not a quick method, but it’s relatively easy if you can handle it. Plus, no super special products. Yesterday was the first time it didn’t work, and that was 3 day old poop that had been almost soaked into the pure white onesie. Bleach fixed it, so glad it was a solid white outfit.

May 27, 2012

Well I’m sorry.

May 27, 2012
May 27, 2012

that is surprising that Klaus didnt mention it …

May 27, 2012