Thanks and a few ramblings

Hey Everyone,

   I just posted yesterdays trackings, so if you are interested go back one. Rmember, you don’t have to look, it is more for me to have a record for myself and anyone who is interested in seeing how I progress. Also if you wish to share tips. What is strange is if you look at how I eat, I really don’t eat badly, I didn’t adjust my eating by much at all for this, just a little less snacking on items and fitting in healthier snacks if I really am hungry. I know that my major part is not getting the exercise that I need, but I live a busy life, I just need to make sure that I set a time and stick to it.

Anyway, enough about that. I want to say THANK YOU to all those that commented on my previous real entry. I really to like comments and encouraging words. It is just worrisome to not know what is going on with me right now. I did have a few questions brought up and I thought that I would answer them here so those who maybe were thinking the same thing but didn’t want to ask will at least know that answer. I have also sent I think answers to most of these questions to the repective person in a note as well.

One person thought maybe that it had to do with my changing my diet and adding more exercise then I had been doing. It is always a possibility, but the diet change was not that drastic and so far neither is the exercise, I have tried to gradually get into the exercising. This person was also thinking the pills that I take are a birth control and they aren’t. They are specially designed pills to induce your period to come. The pill name is Medroxyprogesterone, it is a generic pill form of Provera. The doctor felt that I needed these to get my body a jump start on what it should do after getting on the pill that regulated it to come with hormone levels. Now my hormone levels are what they are at this just adds a little to give it the push to start the cycle every month. I take them the first 10 days of the month.

Next question was: Do you want to be pregnant???? You guys aren’t trying are you???? No, we aren’t officially trying, but we aren’t preventing it. If it is God’s will for me to be with child then I will be happy. I will not be overly disappointed if I am not pregnant, though my husband will be. We both know it will come in time and that we will soon probably try a little more within the next six months, that is if I am not pregnant now. As far as wanting to be pregnant, yes and no. No because I don’t want the puking, even more weight gain, possible itchiness from hives(if I am like my mother it will come the last 3 months because of high estrogen levels), and anything other that tends to be a negative dealing. Yes, because I would love to be a mother, to know that I have a life within me that I will get to see, hold, love and cherish the rest of my days, I am wanting 4 children in the long run, though my husband says we will only be having two, unless we have multiples in one pregnancy. I feel we are in a comfortable place in our life where we can move to the next level. We are finally getting on track with all our finances, we have a roof over our head and food in our cabinets, we aren’t stretched for money and I am definately a lot less stressed about where I will be 20 years. I love the job I am at, both of them, and I feel this is a place that I could really grow and progress as a professional. Those things alone have really come to help me realize that my life is stable, that I am balanced. My relationship with my husband is great and I feel having a child will only continue to grow that relationship as we learn together how to raise the child.

I hope that more clearly answers the questions that came up. Plus it gives you a little insite to me. My husband and I, with this possibility of being pregnant, have started to discuss a few things reguarding the pregnancy. Such as, knowing the sex of the child: I don’t want to know till I have it, my husband on the other hand wants to know. This is going to be our biggest fight I think with the whole thing. He says that I don’t have to know, but he wants to know himself, and I say that would be impossible, because see you would know and somehow someone else would then find out and eventually it would get to me and I have no desire to know. There are plenty of things I can do for a child before it comes without knowing the sex of the child. The only thing I couldn’t do, but my husband could do the day after the birth, is to get a going home dress if it were a girl. I can have onsies, pants, shirts and socks in greens, pinks, blues, yellows, anything and still take a child home in it. But if it is a little girl we could want a dress, but we could have plenty of clothes for her/ him without knowing first what it is. The other item we talked about was when to tell people after we find out. I know that I will probably leak the news here before most of my family would know. I just can’t keep things for long. We are undecided on when to tell the parents, it will probably be after at least the first check up and probably a few more after that. Another item was that of a midwife. I want one, now at first my husband was against this because he thought a midwife wasn’t certified or a nurse and just didn’t have medical experiance. I told him there there are registered nurse midwifes with certifications and everything and will go to the hopsitals out there that we can use. It just so happens that the OB/GYn location that I will go to will have registered midwives. I am very pleased with that and they are registered with the Illinios Midwife association. I know that we are going to decorate the childs room in Pooh. We feel it is a great theme for both a little boy or girl and they can grow up to a good age with it before needing a change. It also doesn’t push boys are blue, girls are pink thing either. I am a girl who’s favorite color is blue and my husband loves pink and purple. We want to pass the thought that colors aren’t related to a sex thing that they are your favorite because you like them. I had a pink room growing up and I hated it, when I got the first chance it went to blue with a dolphin/ ocean theme, but there is still pink carpet.

Well, I better cut this out so that I can start back to work, plus you are probably tired of my rambling about things anyway. Hope all is well with everyone and have a great day!!