Just a total meltdown

Hey everyone,

     Not too much going on, I am just totally stressed right now. I need to lose some weight and the faster the better. I hate how I look. In the process of gaining the weight I have, I have less regular periods(which I think is multiple problems), my skin and face break out more, I have lost the sex drive I once had, my selfesteem has started to fall once more, I am more tired more often, and I can’t fit into the one dress I absolutely love and only year once or twice a year. I HATE IT!!

I have tried so many times to lose weight and I just can’t stay motivated. I used to do multiple sports a year when I was in high school so that always kept me in shape, and then in college I was always walking around campus, doing something for my sorority, or running errands. But all the while there was always someone else there to work out with, walk and talk with or practice with, now a days I have no one. I am not someone that can just do this on their own, I have to have a group to stay on track, to make it fun and want to be there to work out. Most of the gyms around here are too expensive or don’t offer the type of classes I tend to like at the times that I need them. The fitness area for my apartment is kind of a joke, half the stuff doesnt work or is partially broken, like treadmills and bike that don’t let you adjust speed or strength. DVD’s are alright, but again I am the only one doing them so I don’t stay motivated to do them. I know that I eat late sometimes, but that is because that is when I get home. I need a good set of directions for food that I should and shouldn’t eat, things that are easy to make and take to work for lunches, but nothing to do with fish or turkey, because I don’t like either. It just pisses me off that I have gained this weight without really noticing it that much. Now I don’t have the halloween costume I wanted to wear because it doesn’t fit, so I have to go to my back up dress, which just isn’t as nice and most of what I have doesn’t go with it. UGH…. I am mad at myself for not staying more fit, for watching more of what I eat and when. The only thing that I have been able to do better is drinking little to no pop. I tend to drink water related drinks, hot tea, iced tea, or just plain water.  I know this isn’t much but for me it is. Does anyone here want to help be my support system and try and help me keep on track. I just need positive reinforcement and my husband I think tries, but isn’t ver good at it. Anyone have any suggestions as a way to help with the weight loss happen faster, I know you should only lose like 2 pounds a week, but I would like to lose a little more, but I will take anything at this point, especially if I could lose like 20 pounds before Christmas. I will take any suggestions anyone is willing to give.

Sorry for the long rant, I just needed to let it all out. Hope all is well with everyone. I will hopefully get on to note people soon, now I must go check the washer and then head to bed since I have to work tomorrow at 10 am. Have a great night.