true love

If your going, which i know u are, then just go. I cant stand and watch as you fall in love with her, that you want to sleep with her and be with her and have your family. Everyday is the last day, everyday you could leave so what are you waiting for. Oh yeah your waiting to see if she wants you back, if she is willing to be your girlfriend. If shes not then and only then do you want me. You dont wanna give me up until you know you have her… thats not fair to me. Dragging me along crying everyday. I hurt inside and there is no way to get it out. I cry so hard i hypervalenate and i cant breath. I cry so hard i throw up… there is nothing left inside of me.

Its worth it, if you stay, but if your not stop killing me. I’m not gonna recover from this. Another man will never get near me, i let my guard down with you and you never even stopped loving her.

if i died it would be easier for you. No choice just go home to her. You wouldnt be required to hurt me by breaking up. You’d feel bad but your immune to deaths sting. I think bout that when your gone you cant tell me i cant cut, you cant tell me how to live my life. When you leave i’ll be alone in this state, no more hugs or affection or touch. Some pathic girl who cant move on, cant let go.

Your pain and fears are landing you in the ER, two nights in a row chest pain, shortness of breath. Your having panic attacks to the point its physically hurting you. I know this stress is killing you too, so why are you doing this. I was so scared when i called you at 330am after i saw the text that said u were in the ER. You were alone, where the fuck was she..she should have been there. I would have been there. What kind of love does she have if she wont be with "her" man.  i cried for over an hour then i layed awake… i didnt go into work today. I want love, i want you.

your worth crying over, bleeding over and dieing for. I feel it too i always have we are meant to be together, our love is untroubled and pure. Its so easy our relationship, we havent run into problems or had to work at it. Its been so wonderful to know love can be like that. I know i wont find it again, plus i wouldnt want to. I cant love like this again, this is the most honest and true love i will feel. 

i need….him.

 NeoGhosst: he cant replace her with u…….and he cant have a family with u, and forget her…………