moving to new place

Nov 30th, friday

Moving day was a very long day, m and derek had worked the night before on thrusday so they got home early in the morning, and didnt really sleep. My mother had drove up on thrusday and helped me pack up some more stuff that night. Friday morning we went and got the rental truck, her and i, and drove it back to be loaded up. We decided it would be better to do dereks things first since he was more ready and had less, mainly the larger items. So M and derek loaded the truck and took the stuff down to dereks mom and unloaded and headed back.  While they were gone we packed alot more of my stuff, we had Jr all day too. So once they were back it was like 1pm and we took a lunch break and then started packing my stuff into the truck, that took awhile i had all my belongings to move. And stuff still needed to be boxed up, last min stuff. My mom helped out so much with packing the remaining things and cleaning. She loaded her Suv with all the clothes from the closet and kept an eye out for Jr. We finally had the truck packed up, not every last thing but full enough to go and do the unload. Drove the short distance to my new apartment and started to unload, it was about 430/5pm it was getting dark. It had already been an long day we started with boxes, unloading on a hand off style so nobody had to walk the whole thing back and forth. We took Jr with us and left mom at the old apartment to clean. Derek bugged out and was complaining of being tired so took a break and sat in the cab of the truck, it was getting cold outside too. M and i moved my desk up stairs that was quite crappy. I live on the third floor which is five different sets of short stairs and then around a corner and more stairs. We got the bed and the big items the two of us, it took awhile to do that. Getting quite tired and just physically running out of strenght to move stuff.  Woke Derek up and then M crashed for a few mins on the mattress on the floor. Derek and i did what was left of the boxes. After all that we had to go gas up the truck and drove it back to the rental place, we just had it for the day. On the short drive back to the old apartment, they were all sleeping and i left them in the car while i went to help my mom take out all the trash that had built up over the course of the day. Woke up the guys, filled up the cars with the last of the things and derek went to his parents and we went to my new place. It was like 11pm by the time we stopped. Woke up Sat. morning took showers got around and headed out to the store, M took Jr home and derek was headed up to meet us at the apartment, he stayed and hung out while we shopped so someone would be here for the cable guy to hooked up the tv/internet.  We went to walmart and got blinds and curtains and a shower rod/curtain, laundry basket and basic stuff i needed. Came back home and unpacked, put down the contact paper in the kitchen and M helped hang up the blinds and curtains and derek put together my bed. Derek left and we ordered food and just relaxed it was a full day also. Sunday morning woke up early and mom left and i had to go to work. I’m glad she came to visit she was really helpful.

Since then i’ve been slowing unpacking stuff still have boxes in the living room and trying to figure out where to put things. Everything seems sort of messy cant seem to get things orginazed up. Been working lots and the stores been busy, which makes me tired when i come home havent had lots of zip to just put my mind into getting things done. And the greatest thing, M is here with me living with me. We are living together as a couple more so now then anything before. Going grocery shopping and overlooking the mess thats being made cause at least i’m glad hes here to make it. We got about 10inches of snow last week and then ice on top, glad i didnt have to work that day. Need to go shopping for chirstmas, giftcards for everyone.. easy.  Plus i want to get a couple bins/totes to put things away and i really am craving buying a xmas tree.  It doesnt feel like chirstmas at all this year. I plan to go to see my family in Jan i know i wont make it to the traditional xmas get together, which sucks. Just too busy at work and i cant fit all that driving into one day, i honestly like being home on chirstmas day itself. Have a few ideas in mind for M, I wonder how he is spending that day.

Well i’m getting quite tired now just wanted to write down about my moving and that he was living with me now and that i matter to him. Oh derek moved out to PA on the 8th and he is set up in his new home we’ve called and talked a few times now. I talked with his gf for a bit one night. She seems nice but very young (she is). I hope it works out for him. Its weird not seeing him, but i dont think bout it too much really. Not like i thought i would…probably would more so if was alone. I dont need him and i dont miss him all that much. Oh i got the turtle derek didnt want to take her with him, so he got a new filter and setup the tank here. M doesnt have his car anymore, the bank took it back. So we are sharing my car for the time being, so i hope he comes with me when i go to visit my family, i dont want to leave him stuck in the house the whole time.

I like this family, its not mine and because of that i feel bad, i stole something, yet at the same time i am enjoying it very much and wish i had my own. I cant call this mine, its not right or fair to her.  Me, M and Jr.  I see babies in the store and having jr around so much. *sigh*  i want one too, i want to be a mommy. 

M love me forever