days that matter

Feels nice to come back to this place. Yesterday I wasted to much time rereading some of my old thoughts; its crazy how far I’ve come and also how some things feel the same.

I have a Hybrid job; that is flexible and doesn’t require me to check in with my own daily schedule. I set my hours and determine what I will be doing each day (still need to put in 8hours daily).  We are in are slow season and it just sucks trying to fill my time at “work” because when I’m home at my desk with little to accomplish I feel so very unproductive and that really brings down my mood.  Today I didn’t want to sit thru another day of “attempting” to seem like I’m hard at work so I asked for a Sick day. I have taken 3 sick days this year. Two in the month of Sept; I was truely (can’t move from the couch) sick. Yet today is just a me day which I can check things off my own to-do list. I was feeling very accomplished with my time until my phone sucked me in and I wasted 1hour of mindlessness. So I decided to come here and get back on track. Next up; laundry..dinner..

Overall feeling better good today and I just wanted to note that –  as taking a day to feel on track is good for my mental health.

Time goes quickly

on days that matter

and somehow seems

to slow to a crawl on days

where sadness makes a home