could say

staring at the screen…i dont know what to write about…

could say i messed up today, good intentions back fired… i tried to make it easier, and probably tomorrow into next week it will all be heard.   could say work is been stressful, project and deadlines and staff comes and goes. lots of pressure to be perfect, there are lots of things i dont have answers to. could say, i’ve been thinking bout my father and wanting to email but wont let myself, watching a father and kid right before my eyes becoming distance. seeing from the outside what i lived, step mom view and i guess the older i get the more i realize.  could say he had a birthday and i tried to make it special it was a good day.  my own bday is coming which sucks.

I feel quite sad today, puppy face….cause i feel like i’m in the dog house.

just checking in i guess..
laptop battery is low..

i wonder what tomorrow will bring