Me..now…

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So how am i doing now..Hmmmm? I would say good 🙂 I would say that i had a moment of insanity. I feel as though i am a trying to get off a drug..i find myself saying ” dont call him, dont do it” and feel very proud when the day is over and i didnt call…
You have to understand that for the last 3 months we talked like we belonged to each other..every minute, every sec we were in each others each saying the sweetest things…
We know that it cant go on but we still care each immensely..
I really hope someday i can be a friend to him…but that day is not today.
I am really trying to get the connection back with my hubby…find that love again…remember when i felt butterflies talking to him! Remember how great of a team “we” are..remember how we both wanted a family it hurt…
Our Marriage is not easy..but its def worth it.
i know one day i will look back and say “WTH” was that…but right now i must admit it hurts a little bit…
I know myself though, i will be ok…i have to many blessing to have let this get in the way of my marriage…yes i had a stupid moment!!
I belive God was trying to teach me something…i’m still trying to read the message.
With time i know this will all be a blur…i need to focus on whats important..MY FAMILY!!