You should see our laundry pile.

Well, I seem to have taken a turn for the totally boring and uneventful. “You were already there!” I can hear the peanut gallery muttering. Whatever. Boringer. Uneventfuler.

I am the kind of person who lives and breathes routine. The chaos of my brain makes my little routines necessary. In a new home, with everything different, everything is off kilter. Changing routines are the bane of my existence. Or, at least, the bane of my ability to function as an efficient housekeeper, wife, and mother.

We think we have found a church. This is a huge relief. I was expecting to have to church-hop for weeks before we found a place we liked. Nope. First (and closest) church we tried. I’m strangely at ease with these people. I’m never at ease with new people. I don’t know what happened. I’m not going to question it. We’ll just hope it’s not something in the Kool-Aid, right?

Emmy is walking like a pro these days. That’s another reason I haven’t written much: walking, teething, a streak of independence a mile wide. She will no longer take a bottle. She has gone from 4-5 bottles a day (plus solid foods) to a few small cups of formula a day, which she will only drink while stumbling through the living room like an intoxicated baby monkey. She’s suddenly picky about food, too, probably a result of the most horrific teething episode I have ever witnessed in my short life as a mother. Four molars, no sleep, and high fevers for three (four?) days straight. I wanted to strangle myself.

This set of molars is also when Grace stopped eating.

The advantage of both children living on air, water, and bread is that our cost of living just plummeted.

And now? We are sick (just a cold, but I like to be as whiny about it as possible). It just keeps getting better, doesn’t it?

Another also: My grandma died. This is not as terribly sad for me as other grandparents’ deaths have been. Not because I don’t love her (I do, very much), but because I have almost no memories of her. Recent memories after she came to live with my parents a few months ago, yes. We had semi-regular phone conversations (less than a better granddaughter would have had, to my shame), and she and I wrote a lot of letters back and forth when I was little. So I knew her. But my knowledge of her has always been long distance. We visited a few times when I was tiny. The only thing I remember was nearly drowning in our friends’ pool. A couple Christmases and weddings since then.

She was one of the funniest ladies I’ve ever known. Her wit was still razor sharp until just a few months ago. I remember a few years ago, she wrote me a letter recounting a terrible fall she’d taken recently. I knew she was badly hurt, but the way she wrote about it, I still laughed so hard I almost choked.

She used to knit us sweaters. I remember hating a few of them, but I’m pretty sure if I had them now, they would look gorgeous to me. I was a snotty little kid.

I’m glad I got to see a bit of her before we moved away. It wasn’t much, but at least she got to meet the girls.

I’ll see her again someday, and then she’ll be able to remember my name and which grandchild I am.

I’m going back to Wisconsin in a couple of weeks for the memorial service. I will be leaving the kids with Jeremy for nearly a week. I don’t know if I want to jump for joy or cry at the prospect of being away from the babies for that long. For now I’ll just look forward to it. I’m sure I’ll be busy enough I won’t have much time to miss them. And then when I get back, I will smother them with so much love they’ll wish I’d go away again.

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February 6, 2011

I’m sorry to hear about your grandmother. 🙁 It’s always nice to feel at ease in a new church – we did the church hopping thing for a long time before we found our current church, and I know how annoying it can be.

February 6, 2011

Sorry for your loss but I have to say, once again, that you remain an inspiration! Your life sounds pretty chaotic sometimes but you seem to handle it like a pro nonetheless. Little kids are hell, basically, with the noise and the annoying tantrums and the mess and the feeding etc. Change is always hard, for me at least and it sounds for you as well. I’m sure you’ll settle in in time.

February 6, 2011

Sorry to hear about your grandmother, but like you said – you’ll see her again! You spoke of her sharp wit and great humor. Seems to me like you’ve got a little bit (just a tiny bit!) of her in you! In other news, I heard they (the intangible, all-knowing “they”) are going to start charging for air soon. So your cost of living might go up a bit even if the kids don’t eat! 😛 J/K! ~rory

February 6, 2011

Sorry to hear about your grandmother. I am in desperate need of some church-hopping, but I am very, very intimidated by it. We’re so….comfortable where we are, but it’s SO far.

February 6, 2011

I want pictures of your children.

February 7, 2011

Oh and the 500th gas bubble in my stomach did not help yesterday. I remember having gas with mj but I thought switching to lactaid milk solved that. And THEN andrew started talking about when his dad is going to come down to baptaze Asa…seriously?! I think I gave up ar that point.

February 7, 2011

oh yes! 30wks. Holy cow it’s gone fast. I’m way busier than when I was pregnant with mj and time sure has flown! My old job even gave me more “thinking time” while I did monotonious tasks. Did I ever tell you andy and I were discussing what to do with mj while I’m delivering asa and I said “what did we do the first time?” omg I’ve lost my mind

February 7, 2011

I’m so glad you found a church! That will be an awesomeway to get plugged into a community and make friends. Is it very big? Hope you love it. Did you get your hilarious sense of humor from this grandmother?

February 7, 2011

Didn’t you write an entry about falling down the stairs once that was tragic but had me on the floor? Maybe? Something similar? 😉 As someone who comes from a long line of smart-asses, I still maintain that wit is genetic. *hugs* Also, I love that your twitter thing says you’ve “fallen off the Twitter wagon” and it says “46 days go.” WHY DIDN’T THAT WAGON STOP!?!? SOMEBODY STOP THE WAGON AND HELP HER!!!! Okay, I’m done now.