What did he just say?

First of all I want to clarify, in no way is my Stephen a lazy good for nothing if that is what it appeared to be I was trying to say in the last entry.  I just get frustrated sometimes and need to vent a little.  Stephen is very good to me, better than I deserve and would do anything he could for me.  When hes not working, dinner is usually waiting for me when I get home.  He pulls his weight.   He is good to me and for me and I love him.

Anyways, Saturday Stephen was working, my dad, brother, his girlfriend and my nephew all went fishin at the river.  Took mine and Stephens new boat.  The trip was nice.  Broke my fender on my truck, which was broke and fixed once before.  Didnt catch anything worth mentioning.  Stephen and I are going to have to figure out some other way to get the boat to and from the water.  With the 4 of us it was still too hard.  Anywho…….was a nice trip.  Stephen and I are supposed to go camping this weekend.  Sunday he is working a skating event so Im gonna go with him.  Along with my bro (who skates) and his gf.

The AC went out at mom and dads on Saturday so its extra hot in there. Hopefully they can get it fixed soon.

Satruday night we had some drama at the house again, I wont go into details, but I ended up staying the night.

Sunday I went and picked up my Stephen and we went back to mom and dads.  Waited for Billy to get back so he could buy Stephens radio amp and speakers but got tired of waiting and headed out fishing.  I told him we would probably pass Billy on the way and we did.  So we pulled over and they started talking business.  My asshole of an ex was with him, which I knew already.  I didnt get  outta the truck, shortly after they started talking business Joseph asked Stephen if he could go talk to me and Stephen told him if I wanted to talk to him that was fine.

So he approached my window, started asking me how I was doing, I said great.   He kept saying he didnt want to end our relationship on bad terms, to which I replied that he should have thought of that before he did half of what he did.  He said I brought most of it on myself.  I told him no, he was always angry with me and thats what happened.  That I didnt deserve half of what he did to me.  He agreed with me.  He said if I want to think hes a worthless piece of shit, I can, and I told him I pretty much do.  Around this time I started playing around with my chin, my mouth, whatever, flashing my ring in his face.  LOL, shame on me for that but whatever.  Then he started saying something about hanging out with someone, I thought he was talking about Stephen, but turns out he was talking about hanging out with me.  I asked him what purpose it would serve and what would we do.  He said nothing and that we would just hang out and bullshit around.  I told him that I didnt see any need for that, but he asked again that I ask Stephen.  Somewhere in the midst of all this he managed to say he hasnt gotten any in 8 months.  I personally think he was lying but either way, there was no point in that coming up in the conversation at all.  I think he was trying to hint at me fking him.  NOT HAPPENING!!  I love Stephen, and he keeps me plenty satisfied, not that I can say the same about myself for him, but whatever.  I would NEVER step out on him, ESPECIALLY not with that piece of shit.  So, Stephen came back to the truck, we were ready to leave, Joseph introduced himself and extended his hand, Stephen shook it and introduced himself as well.  Then Joseph asked if he could leave us with his cell number so we could all hang out sometime.  I wrote it down.  He said as he had been saying previously in the conversation that it was good seeing me and walked away.  Down the road a bit, I tore off the corner of the paper with his number and threw it out the window, I dont need it nor do I want it.

I couldnt stop thinking about the conversation the rest of the day.  I should have said this and I should have said that.  I was sure that since I had thought about it all day I would dream about it, but I didnt.  I could feel his eyes burning through me the rest of the day while at mom and dads when he was there.  I just ignored him and carried on.  He means nothing to me.  I care nothing about him.

On to other news.  Stephen hung out at Dennis’ yesterday, learning about race cars.  Watching Dennis take the engine apart to see if it was salvagable from the fire.  Good news is, it was!!!  Yay!!

We are going to an Astros game tomorrow night.  Im excited.  I hope they play better this time.  Stephens uncle is coming to town for work and he bought the tickets.  That was nice of him.

Stephen MAY be going to look at new trucks tomorrow.  We shall see.  He is also supposed to talk to Craig tomorrow and let him know that we are looking to move out.  Rachel wants to have the lapband surgery because she is too lazy to do anything else, she wants the easy way out and if she does that, its gonna cost $15000.  So Stephen wants to let Craig know so Craig knows he might not be getting the rent to depend on much longer.

Last night he woke me up because he was pretty much flipping out in his sleep.  Throwing his hands around and shoving the covers off of himself.  Saying something about bugs, so I asked him a few times what was going on and eventually I understood him when he said something about bugs being all over us.  Perhaps he was having a bad dream about the ants.  Poor guy!!

I guess thats all for now.

Hope your weekend was pleasent!!