Red Light……….Go

Well, we didnt go to the party for his coworker.  Im half ass glad since she was going to be there.  I told him we could go, I tried to get him to go, but before we left the first party he got a headache and his neck was hurting, so we just went home.  I had a dream about him and her that night.  I was going to talk to him about it on the drive home last night but as I opened my mouth he said something else and I just let it go.

Friday, all day I was upset about what had happened the night before, I was pissed.  On the drive home it just got worse.  When I walked up behind him sitting in the garage working on his car I just let it go.  I didnt want to fight, I didnt want to be pissy, I just wanted to love him.  We ordered pizza and watched the Stros.  It was a nice night.

Saturday was good too.  I dont remember what we did other than the party, but it was a nice day.

Yesterday we slept most of the day.  Around 4 my dad called and invited us out to the Race Track to watch Dennis race.  Stephens first time.  I think he enjoyed himself.  Too bad Dennis broke his header on the first pass.  After that he made one more pass then put the car up.  I wish Stephen would have got to see him race someone.  Oh well, maybe next time.

I did not want to get out of bed this morning.  I hate my fking job.  I cant seem to wake myself up and get motivated to drive out here.  On the weekends Im up bright and early, no problems.  If I could I would quit my job and be lazy for a little while, until I found something better.  Maybe I should give Stephen my truck, let him sell his car and do exactly that!