Random Worm Sh!t…….

Wow, I dont come here very much any more.

Lets get started, first things first….the first thing on my brain this AM.  The asshole.  Why you ask……would he be on my brain…..hes NEVER there.  Because I saw him this morning.  I passed him going over the RR tracks.  I glanced over, noticed it was him and looked straight ahead. I watched out of the corner of my eye, but pretended not to notice him.  I mean, I looked at him for like a nano second.  But he was looking hard.  Thats right you asshole, eat your heart out….this good shit, that you treated like utter shit, now belongs to someone else.  Someone soooooo much better than you.  Someone I never want to let go, someone I dont deserve but Im glad hes mine.  On top of all that, my Stephen looks soooo much better than that piece of shit ever could.  WTF kinda crack was I smokin??  The boy cant even grow a full beard.  Looks like a worm just randomly shit on his face in random places…….ridiculous.  Wanna know why he cant grow a full beard……because he’s not a man.  He’s a piece of shit coward.  My Stephen on the other hand is a man, a beastly man LOL he has nooooo problem growing the hair.  LOL.  I never found that sorta thing attractive, but I love my Stephens hair……I like to grab it and run my fingers through it……..yummy.  Only on Stephen though, on every one else it grosses me out.

The other day we were sitting around with my sister and she started going on and on about things I used to say I would never do.  Never marry a yankee, never marry a smoker….the list continues.  Now look at me….everything I said I would never do, Im doing now.  Its not that Im just taking what Ive been given, not at all.  I love him, and its because of that that Im doing things I said I would never do.  I love him 1000000000 %.  Ok, enough of the mushy stuff I suppose.  Moving on.

Got some more disturbing news this weekend.  Lets hope it works out for us.  I hope like hell.  Man, this past month has just been such a downer.  Too much shit going on.  Hopefully things will start to look up soon.

Took the nephew to our last zoo class for the month this past weekend.  We’ve been the last 3 weekends.  Im taking him to the class I used to help out in when I volunteered.  Its been fun.  After class we would walk around and see some of the animals.  Not the entire zoo, just part of it.  Divided it up into 3 parts and by yesterday we had seen everything.  Then we went on the train ride, I promised him we would.  On the way home we stopped at the airport.  Another promise I made.  To watch planes take off and land.  The airport wasnt too busy with flights while we were there but we did get to see one land and one take off.  He thought it was really cool and it just made my day to make him that excited.  I love that little critter.  He’s so much fun.

I dont think we are going to Craig and Rachels on Friday for an extended Thanksgiving day dinner.  I feel guilty about it, but I will explain it to her afterwards.  For now, the reason is hush hush.  Only my mom knows. 

Wow, this is getting pretty lengthy.  Oh yeah, on Saturday we went with the neighbor to the races.  He didnt inform us it was a Clobberthon, which meant entry was $40, not $20.  That totally sucked ass.  We are broke as hell…..could barely afford the $20.  But whatever.  Neighbor made 2 passes, first one was shitty, second was good.  He didnt even get to race anyone.  They closed the track at 10……..thats unheard of.  Dunno wtf was up with that but it was VERY upsetting.  Stupid morons. 

Overall, Stephen and I are good.  Trying to figure things out.  Trying to get the ball rollin.  Trying to decide if we are going to get married in June or postpone until 2008.  Money is so tight.  Hopefully with his job change things will start to get better.  You know what, if he has to work til 10 or 11 so be it.  I dont mind him coming home late at night, just as long as he’s home every night.  He’s working a 48 now…..wont see him again until Weds.  Sucks ass, I miss him so much when he’s gone.  Im a spoiled little brat, what can I say.  I cant help it, he just makes me so happy and I love being around him soooo much.  The bed gets lonely, I get lonely.

Im off 2 days this week, 4 day weekend, kick ass.  If all goes to plan……this weekend is going to be an awesome one.  I cant wait.  Not at all.   

Alright, I guess thats all I have to say for now.  Man, this turned out to be longer than expected, sorry guys.

Enjoy yourselves!!