Pains of the backside…….

Well, I decided we cant get married in June.  If we do end up having babies, we cant have our anniversary and fathers day all in the same month.  That would be too expensive and stressful for me.  ::Shrugs::  We shall see, Im in no hurry, Im not going anywhere anytime soon and I dont think he is either.

I was grumpy yesterday when I got home.  I left work early so I could get home and see him and everyone and their momma was preventing me from doing that.  I didnt get home much earlier than usual.  So I was frustrated about my trip home.  Then I get there and look out and see the garden and remember how frustrated I am about that.  He asked me to help him with the garden, not do the whole thing by myself, to which I agreed.  But the only person who has done anything is me.  Yes he has watered it a few times but thats about it.  I planted everything, made the rows, pretty much did it all.  I kept asking him to go out there and weed it but he wouldnt, he’s afraid of the ants.  So yesterday when I looked out and saw nothing but weeds, I got pissed.  He is home more often than me, Im exhausted when I come home from work, this is his garden, not mine.  So after we ate, I went outside and plucked all the weeds.  Im gonna have to go back out there today and get all the little ones that I didnt get last night.

While Im out there, Im thinking "Is this how I wasnt to spend the rest of my life, taking care of him because he is to lazy to do it for himself?"  I dont want that, I want a partnership.  Dont get me wrong, he does do some things……..but usually the real work is left to me.  Cleaning the room, weeding the garden.  The room doesnt get cleaned unless I bitch enough.  Thats another thought I had, I dont want to spend forever being a bitch to him,  nagging him, etc.  He’e a grown boy, he can learn to do this stuff.  On top of all that, he wants animals and such………I can see it now……I will be the only one taking care of them.  Im the only one who takes care of the hampsters.  Sometimes I can get him to feed them and water them, but usually its all on my sholders.

I love Stephen, I honestly do, but I cant do this forever.  He’s gonna have to get his shit together or be prepared to live a miserable life with me. 

Anyways……..my ass started hurting last week when I was sick.  It went away for a few days, but now the pain has returned.  My Aunt Becky said she thinks its a pinched nerve.  I dunno what it is but I was tossing and turning all night because of it.  I cant sit or walk or move without it hurting.  Last night Stephen rubbed it for me, FINALLY, and then put some icy hot on it, neither of which helped.  It was appreciated, but didnt help.  So, Im in terrible pain right about now.  I made him get up and hit snooze 3 times this morning because I couldnt crawl outta bed.  This sucks, I wish it would go away.

Let me just clarify, Stephen does a good job with most things, he is helpful, thoughtful and tries his best, just some things frustrate me.  I will admit, he has started learning to close the damn drawers when he opens them……..so maybe there is hope!  Im not trying to change him, I just want his help!