My give a damn’s busted…..

As I sit here munching on the last of my dry Apple Jacks, I cant help but feel good about myself.  Im crawling out of my dark, cold cave into the bright warm sunshine, ready to explore the world with a smile on my face again.  Its amazing how back and fourth my emotions can be.  These ‘cycles’ bother the hell out of me, but I guess I’ve just gotten so used to them, I deal with it as best I can until they pass.  Ive actually noted back on not one but 2 faves this morning.  The only two that had updated.  Havent done that in a while.

Ive told Andrew to fk off, Ive had enough of his bullshit games.  He plays toooooo fking much, expecting me to believe everything he says.  Give me a fking break, and get a fking life!  Hes so immature its unreal.  Which reminds me I havent heard from Toby in forever.  Maybe he finally got a fking clue, now if only Andrew would.  As soon as he does, thats 3 assholes down so far this year, only a slight few more to go.  WHOO HOO!! 

I guess I should tell yall about Buster now.  Tuesday night Mark invited me over to hang out with him and Buster.  I did.  Just before we all crashed I sweetly asked Buster to give me a massage. THATS IT!!  He did, for a while, then I guess he got turned on and wanted more.  So I decided fk it, let him mess with me, but Im not messing with him, nor helping him get off.  Because of things hes done in the past, thats what he deserved.  So I let him finger me, not once rolling over.  I stayed on my stomach the entire time, not making things easy for him at all.  As soon as I came, I was done.  A few times he tried to pull my hand to his cock but I pulled away.  At one point he laid on top of me and tried to slide his cock between my semi closed legs to gain entrance.  I closed my legs tight and moved a bit so he couldnt.  Shortly after I came he said “will you give me head” I mumbled no, he said “you dont want to”  “no” and that was it.  I could sense he was upset, but oh well.  He went and got on the couch and I stayed on the floor.  I dunno if he finished the job himself or not, who cares.  Was that wrong of me to do that to him?  Hell no!!  What about all the times he pushed himself on me, I didnt want him there, times I was drunk off my ass, passed out and he came in trying to have his way with me even after I told him no.  FK YOU ASSHOLE!  So that was that.  Dont get me wrong, I like Buster…..I just dont want to deal with that shit.

Last night Froggie had an accident.  He loves being chased and dad was chasing him down the hall.  He fell and started screaming, dad picked him up and was still trying to play with him, so Kris, irritated, came to get Justin.  Thats when she said “Hes bleeding”  Dad said “No hes not” “Yes he is”  I was on the computer and when I heard that I got up and went to go get Justin.  Kristy gets dizzy when she sees him bleeding, so I knew she wouldnt be able to handle it.  I grabbed Justin from dad and yelled at him to get out of the way.  Got a wet rag, by now that baby had blood ALL over the place, Im, telling you it was bad and just pouring out of his mouth.  I yelled for mom to come help me because he was screaming and squirmging and I was having a hard time figuring out what was wrong.  I cleaned him up and realized he had busted the front of his mouth.  Mom washed the blood off his face and I calmed him down then took him back to Kris.  Later mom said I was a good Aunt and such.  I laughed and told her something along the lines of I will probably react the same way when one of my kids gets hurt, so Kris will have to take care of them.  “When her kid gets hurt, I’ll take care of him, when one of mine gets hurt, Kris will have to do it, we will just swap out”  Im glad to say  that he is all better now, and was soon trying to get someone to chase him again.  That silly boy!

Well, my apple jacks are gone, so I guess I’ll get out of here.  TATA!!

Not sure how many of you have heard this song, but I thought it fit this entry quite well!

Jo Dee Messina-My give a damn’s busted

(1st verse)

Well you filled up my head,
With so many lies.
Twisted my heart
Til something snapped inside.
I’d like to give it one more try
but my give a damn’s busted.

You can crawl back home
say you were wrong,
stand out in the yard
cry all night long.
Well go ahead and water my lawn.
My give a damn’s busted.

(chorus)

I really wanna care,
I wanna feel somethin’
Let me dig a little deeper…
Nope…
Sorry…
Nothin’

(2nd verse)

You can say you’ve got issues.
You can say you’re a victim.
It’s all your parents fault,
After all you didn’t pick em
Well maybe Oprah’s got time to listen.
My give a damn’s busted.

(*Well let me get this straight now)
Your therapist said
It was all just a phase
A product of the prozac
And your co-dependent ways
So uhh … who’s your new neighbor these days
My give a damn’s busted.

(chorus)

I really wanna care,
I wanna feel somethin’
Let me dig a little deeper…
Eeh-Eeh

(3rd verse)
(*Oh you’re tellin’ me)
It’s a desperate situation,
No tellin’ what you’ll do.
If I don’t forgive you,
You say your life is through.
Well honey… give me somethin’ I can use.
(My give a damn’s busted.)
(*Ahh you knew I was gonna say that, didn’t ya.)

My give a damn’s busted (*ha ha)
My give a damn’s busted
Honey trust me
My give a damn’s busted yeahhh …
OOOH
My give a damn’s busted yeahhh
(*You wanna do what?)(*ha ha ha ha ha)
My give a damn’s busted
(*Get the party started thats what we’ll do)
My give a damn’s busted
(*I’m not done honey, trust me)
My give a damn’s busted
(*Been there, done that)
My give a damn’s busted
My give a damn’s busted