Mind games

Ok so Im paranoid about getting breast cancer right…….simply because of the EXTREME family history I have with it.  I know I’ve already mentioned all that.  Anyways, Im sitting here at my desk and I noticed a lump/knot/something, under my arm.  Its sore and tender.  I automatically started looking up symptoms and such again, because with my overly paranoid self I start to think the worse.  In the back of my mind I tell myself its probably just an ingrown hair, I look for signs of redness and what not that you usually get with an ingrown hair.  Nothing. Its just a tender bump.  So I did the research and found info leaning in both directions.  While I KNOW its just an ingrown hair, my mind is toying with me and causing me to worry over nothing.  I hate that!

Kris and Billy are apparently still upset that mom called them out on their stupidness.  The other night we came home and they were gone.  Thats 2 nights theyve spent the night elsewhere. Last night when we got home around 7:30 they were already in bed..like they are trying to avoid everyone.  They are also kinda keepin frogbutt away from us.  ::Cries::  From what I understand Billy hasnt gone to work a few more times this week.  Also, apparently he is buddies with Joseph again, because Joseph has called every day this week.  Funny huh?  Just a few weeks ago things were totally different in that respect.  Thats fine, let them be buddies, let them talk the shit they think they need to talk.  I could careless, they can both kiss my fking ass.

Anyways, I guess I’m gonna go….bye all!