If we had known our love would come to this
May 18, 2004. I was 20 years old, young, dumb, single, working for a jerk, and making typical immature bad decisions in life. I discovered this place and it was like therapy for me.
January 31, 2014. I am 30 years old, wiser, content and happy with life, a Christian, stay at home mom, working from home, married with 2 beautiful children. I haven’t been here in quite a while, not as much as I was 10 years ago, and now it is time to leave.
All good things must come to an end so they say.
A quick update on me before I go.
I have really started to rely on my faith to get me through the last year and it grows stronger and deeper every day. I realize that the harder I work on my faith and love for God and Jesus, the harder the devil fights me. The only thing he hasnt realized is I fight harder. I have had my struggles, who hasnt, but I am keeping the faith and moving forward.
My marriage is great. Stephen works non stop to support the household. He is nearly done with his paramedic (finally) and I am so proud of him.
Brooke is in Kinder and I cannot tell you how amazing she is doing. She is reading, writing, doing addition and subtraction. In Church she is learning a lot as well and my heart just bursts with pride for her. She wants to do dance and girl scouts so we will be starting that soon. She is an amazingly bright, creative, caring soul and I am blessed to be her mom.
Lil Stephen is anxious to start school. I really wish he could skip Pre-K and go straight to Kinder. He is right behind his sister as far as smarts go. He is a silly little boy and he loves his mommy to the core. He is going to make an amazing man one day and I cannot wait to be there to see it all happen. He has had so much growth this year, leaving the comfort of his mommys arms and exploring the world on his own.
Me. I am happy.
OD you have watched me grow so much over the last 10 years. It is amazing the things you saw me go through. You were always here when I needed a safe place to vent. There were countless times I needed that. I never really established relationships with other people here, I just came here to get things off my heart and chest. I will be sad to see you go, but I thank you for the years we had together. My 20’s were an important chapter in my life, so many changes took place and you were the perfect friend to experience that with.
Until we meet again……
It’s your life – you say you need a change
Don’t all the dreams we’ve seen come true mean anything
You say it’s different now and you keep staring at the door
How can you walk away don’t I matter anymore
If being free’s worth what you leave behind
And if it’s too late for love to change your mind
Then it’s goodbye time
If we had known our love would come to this
We could have saved our hearts the hurt of wasted years
Well it’s been fun – what else can I say
If the feeling’s gone words won’t stop you anyway
If being free’s worth what you leave behind
And if it’s too late for love to change your mind
Then it’s goodbye time