I wonder……

If sometimes the reason why we have so many issues is because Im not afraid to speak up anymore.  In the past I was always afraid to say anything about something that was bothering me for fear of my partner getting upset with me and walking away from me.  I want things to work out with Stephen and I dont want to spend forever with my lips sealed shut slowly dying inside.  I dont want to be, nor am I afraid to tell him when something is bothering me.  The way I see it now, based on my past and learning from that, if I keep my mouth shut about things I only hurt myself more in the long run.  We all know I think WAY too much and if left alone with my thoughts for too long I could kill myself with grief.  I hate fighting with him and being upset and hurt but at the same time I feel like its whats best of us.  Am I making much sense?

I still need to catch up on notes and faves but Im not in much of an OD mood lately,

Oh wow, I just realized, Weds will be 6 months I’ve been with Stephen, not long I know, but it’s truly flown by and 7 months ago I never would have imagined Id be this crazy about someone.  Its great!  6 months, wow!

Oh and guess what else.  WE BEAT SUPER MARIO BROS 3 YESTERDAY.   Man was I excited and proud of us both.  It was just great!!!

He had to work a 24 on Saturday 6a Sat-6a Sun, so I stayed at mom and dads.  Hung out with them and my Froggie.  I love my nephew so much, he’s so great.  He and his paw paw went squirrel hunting Sunday morning and dad said when they got outside Froggie saw a squirrel running across the yard so he took off after it yelling "There’s one paw paw"  LOL  What a nut.  On Saturday we all went to feed the cows, Justin and I were in the back of the truck and I told him to start calling the cows, so he did and one of them mooed, so he looked at me and said "They are callin me"  ROFLMAO it was TOOOOOOO fking cute.  Geeze I love him.

Anywho, around 10:30ish Sunday I was missing Stephen and wanted to take a nap, I knew he was home sleeping so I drove over there to curl up next to him and nap with him.  About an hour maybe an hour and a half later he realized I was there and curled up next to me.  I could go on and on and gush about how great he is but I will spare you guys.

I know we have our issues and he has hurt me, but bottom line, Im not letting him go, he’s the best thing I’ve ever had, well aside from my nephew and TexMex food, LOL!!!

How was your weekend?

 

 

Shennandoah-I want to be Loved like that

Natalie Wood gave her heart to James Dean
The high school rebel and the teenage queen
Standin together in an angry world
One boy fightin for one girl

(Chorus)
I wanna be loved like that, I wanna be loved like that
A promise you can’t take back
If you’re gonna love me
I wanna be loved like that

Daddy never gave Momma a diamond ring
But Momma never wanted for anything
But what he gave her it came from the heart
In a bond that was never torn apart

(Repeat Chorus)

An old man kneeling all alone
Plants his flowers in a garden of stone
For seven years now she’s been gone
And his devotion is still goin strong

I wanna be loved like that, I wanna be loved like that
A promise you can’t take back
If you’re gonna love me

(Repeat Chorus)