I feel like strippin’ it down *EDIT*

I couldnt wait to get home to see my Stephen yesterday.  I left work 45 minutes early and every traffic light was thankfully on my side.  Green all the way baby!!  Gotta love that!   When I got there he was soaking in the bathtub with the radio on.  LOL he’s too funny. 

Last night Stephen and I went to eat at the place we had our first date.  I started laughing when the host walked us to the same exact table we sat at for our first date.  It was our first time back there since the first time.  We both ordered the same thing, I got spaghetti instead of mashed potatoes this time because I wasnt as nervous and the waitress didnt throw me off guard.  Our table came to life and began to move just like last time as well.  It was great.  I love him so much.

After that we went and bought some new play toys.  One we threw away asap because, well it kinda ‘malfunctioned’.  LOL pooooooooor Stephen.  I wore a little something for him last night, it wasnt much, since all my stuff is at home, it was the best I could do for the moment.  I think it was a nice gesture. 

Boy oh Boy did we have fun.  Craig and Rachel were gone, Craig took her to the hospital because she was sick, on a side note shes feeling better now.  Anyways………man I enjoyed myself.  I hope he did too.  Plus, the added bonus was I didnt have him shushing me.  I hate when he does that.  I say fuck the world I’ll be as loud as I want, when I want.  Lately when he tells me to shhhh, I shake my head no and tell him no.  Sorry Craig.  Sorry Rachel.  I know its not exactly respectful to them, but why deprive myself?!?!?  I enjoy being loud, I dont want him to think Im dead.

After we got all messy we climbed in the shower to clean off.  A few times last night we got on the subject of our wedding.  This happened again in the shower.  So we climbed out to go make a rough draft of our guest list. 

Talked about flying my parents and us to NY for a weekend to meet his parents.  Tried to figure out our bridal party.  Sadly I dont have any friends or anything, so my bridal party just looks crappy.  My cousins are too young or too old.  We figured something out for now.  Again, its just a rough draft, I havent even had the official proposal yet so, not like its life or death or anything.  He said he could get me a few more brides maids, but I refuse.  I dont want someone I dont know, someone Ive only met once or twice because A Im shy B I have to hang out with them…..its gonna make me feel uncomfy.  Im gonna feel uncomfy enough as it is, I dont need the added stress.  LOL

I suggested we have 2 engagement parties because A my family is here B his family is there and C we both have a good sized family.  I just think it would be easier.  Get my parents in NY and have them there for the engagement party for his side and then do the opposite for the engagement party for my side.  We shall see.  Plus it would be cheaper than trying to figure out how the hell to get everyone to one specific location.  We shall see…..

Oh yeah and Stephen renamed our hamsters Dyke and Butch.  Two girls going at it…..enough said.  I told him they have been watching us too much, they are trying to copy us.  LOL

My Stephen is off today and tomorrow so today will be another day I rush home to see him.  I just cant get enough of him.  I want to be with him every moment I can.

Anyone hear about the police chase, kidnapping that happened in Houston yesterday.  On my drive home I was listening to the radio.  That was some crazy shit, when I found out it was a woman, a man and a 4 year old,in the same kinda car my sister has, I got nervous.  The guy was shooting at other cars on the freeway and for a brief moment I thought "I hope it wasnt my sister and them"  If they hadnt have said the baby was 4, it would have been worse.  Theres no way Justin is 4 so I felt relief.  Is that awful that i knew my sisters bf has the potential to do that sort of thing?  Anyways, turns out the guy kidnapped them from just south of Dallas.  Crazy people in this world.

Anyways, thats all my news………HAPPY FRIDAY!

*EDIT* I just read the first 5 or 6 entries of my diary.  My life has changed sooooo much, I have changed so much and so have the people around me.  Just got me thinking….thats all.  Im much happier now and doing alot better than I was when I wrote those almost 2 years ago.  It amazes me how much can change.

Come a little Closer~Dierks Bentley

Come a little closer, baby
I feel like layin’ you down
On a bed of sweet surrender
Where we can work it all out
There ain’t nothin’ that love can’t fix
Girl, it’s right here at our fingertips
So come a little closer baby,
I feel like layin’ you down

Come a little closer, baby
I feel like lettin’ go
Of everything that stands between us
And the love we used to know
I wanna touch you like a cleansing rain
Let it wash all the hurt away
So come a little closer baby
I feel like lettin’ go

If there’s still a chance
Then take my hand
And we’ll steal away
Off into the night
’till we make things right
The suns gonna rise on a better day

Come a little closer baby
I feel like strippin’ it down
Back to the basics of you and me
What makes the world go round
Every inch of you against my skin
I wanna be stronger than we’ve ever been
So come a little closer baby
I feel like strippin’ it down

Just a little bit closer baby
Just a little bit closer baby
Come a little bit closer baby
I feel like layin’ you down