He struck again…..

He called again last night…..now he is going to try to get me fired.  I dont really care to write too much about it this time.  It’s causing a shit load of stress and I just dont feel like dealing with it.  I will sum most of it up.  He says he is doing this to make my life a living hell.  I asked him if he thought he hadnt done that enough already.  I told him not to call me anymore, to leave me alone and to get over it,  asked if I was that important to him that he needed to waste all of this time and energy doing what he is doing.  Told him that many times I have heard things he has said about me and told him I didnt care enough to even worry about it, so why should he.  He is convinced the only reason I wont let him read my diary is because I’m afraid of him finding out about other guys.  LIKE HELL!  I could careless if he found out, hell I’ve already told him who I’ve been seeing.  I honestly think this is just a jealousy related issue and the fact that he is no longer able to fk me has something to do with it.   He called me 4 times last night within a one hour time span.  One of the calls as soon as I answered, he was all nice, soft spoken and told me if I fk him he wont be mad any more.  He went on to ask if my window was unlocked, I told him that was none of his concern and that the ONLY way he would be fking me was if he raped me.  The first time he called he said he was 10 minutes from my house and was coming over.  I kept telling him no, he didnt need to be there.  The 3rd time he called everything had changed, he was telling me he was never even close to my house and that he didnt want to "fk your wore out pussy anyways, I was only joking".   He called me SO many mean and hurtful things…but thats ok, I’ll get past it I’m sure.  After the 3rd call I decided to call Andrew, to see what he had to say about it, since hes a cop.  Tried twice, no answer.  So I called the local County Deputies office, she said an officer would call me back.  Then came the 4th call……this time he threatened with my job.  He hung up, I tried Andrew again, he had just got off duty.   Andrew said there really wasnt much I could do.  That I should start recording our phone conversations and such, I can get him for phone harrassment.  Shortly after I hung up with Andrew, the Deputy called me.  He basically told me all the same things Andrew did.  Except he told me that I should probably talk to an Attorney, if Joseph ruins my credibility at all I can sue him.  He also told me that I should go to the Judge and get a restraining order.  Just before hanging up the officer asked his name, he said it sounded familiar, asked if he lived near me, I told him no, then told him the general area of where he lives.  From there the officer told me which direction to turn on which road, and how many houses down that road his house was.  I thought that was pretty fking sad that the officer has his name and where he lives memorized. This morning on the way to work I let mom know what was going on.   I didnt tell her all details, but most.  When I got to work I went through my diary and put every entry with his name in it on private.  I told him last night that I would do that.  I will from now on put every entry about him on private.  Oh, I forgot to mention, last night while he was cussing me out and such, trying to get the URL he asked "Is it opendiary.com" "Nope" "Well I’ve already read it" "Ok" "No, Im just kidding"  So I dont know if he found my diary and read it all and thats why hes so pissed off or what.  Either way, entries about him are on private.  I told my boss if anyone calls here trying to get directions or information about me, not to tell them anything.  Then around 10:30 I went to see the judge.  He wasnt going to be there until 11, they gave me a number to call for the District Attorney or whatever, so I went home to call.  They only do protective orders, not restraining orders.  I told Kris all about what happened last night, asked her what she thought I should do.  She said to go ahead with taking some form of legal action.  Now I cant decide if I am going to wait and see if he calls a 3rd time, or if I should just try the judge again tomorrow.  I wish I felt like posting more details about our conversation, but honestly I dont.  I cried so hard last night,  I didnt get to sleep until after 2:30am.  Im thinking maybe I should just quit my job before he gets me fired.  Like I told him last night, I wish he would just leave me the hell alone.  I also wish I could just run away from it all.  Thats cowardly, I know.  But I dont want to deal with it.  If I had some where to go, where he couldnt find me, trust me, I’d be there in a heartbeat.  THIS FKING SUCKS!!  I’m thinking I will wait for a 3rd night of phone calls.  This time recorded.  Tell him not to call me anymore and inform him that I have started to take legal action.  If he calls again I will continue with the legal action.  Thats just gonna piss him off more, but oh well.