Everything has to be a struggle

First of all, pardon any typos, I still havent had my surgery yet and dont have my magnifying glass handy to read through things so it might be a little worse than usual, bare with me.

So, its been a rough couple of days.  Stephen and I have had some big problems but have since kissed and made up.  Thank goodness.  I hate going through that.  I love my husband more than anything, well you know minus the one exception.  I just hate it so much.

Other than that weve had alot going on with his mom.  They called off her surgery on friday because she had a uti.  She had to redo her urine test on Monday and they said it would be 24 to 48 hours before results.  We found out today that her white blood cell count isnt right so they still arent scheduling the surgery.  She is at this point refusing to go, shes pissed because they keep pushing it back, she doesnt want to wait any more.  I dont blame her, but she needs to have it done.  I was scheduled to be back home this evening but I canceled my flight and im waiting to see what happens with her.  I dont want to leave and then the next day they do her surgery.  We are just kinda up in the air right now and not sure what to do.  Its so frustrating.  I talked with her today and told her that I really want her to go.  She finally started saying she would think about it.  So Im keeping my fingers crossed.

I feel bad because my sister needs a baby sitter since Im not there.  She is having to use someone she really doesnt want to and on top of that, right now she doesnt know when she can expect me back.  What am I going to do though??  I would rather be here for my husband than at home helping her out with her boys.

A side note, its been so damn cold here its not even funny.  Its supposed to be spring.  I woke up the first day of spring to snow falling from the sky.  I really wish it would warm up, they are saying it will be warmer by Friday, but its only supposed to get up into the 50s.  id like to go home to my 70 – 80 degree weather.

brooke is having a good time though.  Everyone adores her, naturally.  She started climbing today.   Now Im really in trouble.  Shes getting ALOT braver with her walking, but now we get to add climbing.  yay!!  We took her to the park the other day, her first trip to a park, she LOVED it.  The swing, the slide, she couldnt stop giggling.  I love my baby girl, shes so amazing.

Ok, bye bye all!!