Cold Sholder
So, last night Stephen got upset with me because I told him not to rub my back. Hold up rewind…….let me explain. I ALWAYS rub & scratch him, he doesnt have to ask, I just do it. I wish he would do the same for me, but I always have to ask and when I do he makes it seem like a chore. So, most of the time when I could use a back rub or scratch I just ignore it and leave him alone. Well, last night he rubbed it, but it was soft and I wanted something with a little more pressure. So, after my shower I asked him to do it. He got all huffy about it so I just said whatever. He got up to do something and came back and started rubbing me so I told him no. Which upset him, he said he was just playing with me earlier when he said no etc, but how was I to know. In my mind he was just doing it because I said something, not because he was trying to be nice. So then he went on about how he felt unappreciated which hurt. I try my best to always say thank you and let him know I appreciate the things he does. Everything I said after that just made things worse, I couldnt say anything right so I just said screw it and shut up.
Usually when Im upset with him I still tell him good night, I love him and give him a kiss. All I got from him was goodnight. So, I fell asleep and had a dream where I was trying to get his attention. I guess because I didnt get his attention before I fell asleep. I dreamt we were laying in bed and I said I was gonna go somewhere, I got up, took a shower, walked around in front of him naked, sprayed a shit load of perfume on all to see if he would notice me and he never did. In my dream I wasnt really planning on going anywhere, just wanted him to see me. So he says he’s gonna go somewhere too, he gets up, gets dressed and walks out, No goodbye, no nothing just walked out as if I were invisible. So, since my plan didnt work, I laid back in bed sad and hurt. This dream woke me up around 2:30.
As Im trying to fall back asleep he rolled over and put his arm and leg on me, I almost shoved him away just to be spiteful but I didnt. I let him know this morning that I was upset but I didnt say why. I left my phone at home this morning and planned on calling him as soon as I got a chance to let him know. He called me on the work phone and asked if I was ignoring him. Apparently he called and text me, I apologized and explained. He thought I was that upset that I was ignoring him. Then he told me that he left me a VM saying he was sorry, to which I replied, "you dont even know what you did". "Fell asleep without giving you a kiss" "How did you know?"
How did he know?
