Back from NYC!!!!

I had such a great time in NY!!!  Doing absolutely nothing!!!  Was awesome.  I slept in till noonish pretty much every day we were there.  It was great.  Im sure Stephen loved it more than I did.  Usually Im up and about and ready to get the day goin……….he wants to relax.  So it was quite nice.

Lets see……..recap time.  We left Friday, late.  First we went by the place for the house, took some pictures, talked to the guy…..then got on the road.  I dont remember what time it was but we spent the night in Knoxville, TN I think.  Didnt get into NY until about 5 am Sunday morning.  Christmas was good, his family was good to me.  Spent the morning with his mom and the rest of the day with his dads side of the family.

Only spent one night out at the bar, I felt bad for him………he never gets to play darts.

Had a bit of drama between the two of us but things are better now.   Im hoping this year will be much better for us.  Last year was kind of a rough year.  Part of our resolution is date nights.  We are broke right now but we plan to go out at least once every 2 weeks.  It doesnt have to be anything major………..just as long as we have a night out, by ourselves.  I think it will be good for us.  I love him very much and I dont wanna let him go……EVER!

We showed everyone the pictures of the house, everyone loved it and is excited for us. 

Put a little more effort into being with his mother one on one this time.  Went with her to get my nails done, helped wrap a few gifts, little things like that.  I tried.  She made Stephen come pick her up from work one day……apparently she had a few things to talk to him about, some regarding me.  I dont show enough affection towards him, I dont do anything, he has to do all the cooking…….blah blah blah.  Again, she had the wrong idea about me.  I dont show affection around any adult I have respect for.  ANYONE.  Call me crazy, old fashioned, whatever, but I think its disrespectful……I dont even feel comfortable holding hands infront of them.  Stephen is WELL aware of this, I let him know from the get go…….he’s been ok with it and Ive tried to get better about it.  It still just makes me feel a bit uneasy but I do it.  As far as the cooking goes……..again, wrong idea, I cook, I clean, I help out and do my share.  9 out of 10 times Stephen is home before I am therefor he cooks.  He’s sweet and tries to have dinner ready for me when I get home.  Doesnt mean I never cook, because I do.  There were just things she said about me that she has the wrong idea about…….completely.  It aggrivates me.  Makes me feel like shit about myself.  I know Im good to him……granted sometimes Im not, but most of the time I am.  I try to take care of him the best I can and let him know that I love him.  I dont like people having the wrong idea about me.  UGHHHHH!!

Know what else I did.  Since she went on and on about how Im just about my family and not concerned about his etc………..I took it upon myself to sit down with his brother and help him with his science project.  No one asked me, I knew it had to be done…….so I did that. 

She also is upset about the whole switching holidays thing.  Forget all the birthdays I have Christmas  week…….lets pretend they dont exist………I still think its unfair that I dont get to spend at least every other Christmas with my family.  I cant help it that my family is closer and we cant afford to go to NY.  But in my family the 2 biggest holidays for us(the 2 most important to me) are Thanksgiving and Christmas.  I cannot begin to describe the awful feeling I had in my stomach while I was talking to my mother about how her and my father were ALONE for Christmas.  That hurt so bad.  It was just the 2 of them and I felt guilty.  So anyways, shes upset about that. 

I love her, I think shes great, but its really starting to annoy the fuck outta me.  She has the wrong idea about me and she’s being selfish.  Honestly I would much rather Stephen and I spend all the holidays alone by ourselves, without family, than to have to feel like one family was picked over the other.  Would make things much easier if we just said we were staying home, who ever wants to come see us is welcome to it, otherwise, happy holidays and we will be in touch.

Alright, enough of the ranting.  The week was good, bottom line.  Drive back home was good as well.  We stopped at the casino again in Lake Charles, walked in with 100 bucks and split it….then went our own ways and played with our 50 bucks.  I doubled mine, Stephen lost all his so we broke even, which is a good thing.  I found a machine that was hitting, a penny machine no less, I had it up to 150, thats with only putting about 20 bucks into it, but I worked down that last 50 and cashed out at 100.  Was a good time.

I guess thats about all for now.  Back here at work.  Thank goodness its not as bad as I thought it would be.  Wanna know the really fked up part, Ive been gone for over a week and he only got one appraisal request.  Thats really fucked up.  Things are REALLY slowing down again.  Hope I can keep my job!

Hope you all had a wonderful holiday and have a happy new year!!!