Life flies

My life is consumed by feeding 3 little mouths, cleaning up after disasters and explorations, entertainment and cuddling. The financial disasters are also very consuming, and somehow I also manage to run a reasonably successful cake decorating business. Only reasonably successful as I do no advertising at all, just have a facebook page and word of mouth. I would get too much work if I tried to get work, lol.

I have very little to no time to myself, just for myself. If some miracle happens and they are all asleep at the same time, I better get dishes done or some washing on before the madness begins again.

I’m sure I could do more while they are awake, but I have 2 problems with that. I am a stay at home mom to stay at home and be a mom! Housework takes a backburner to that. And also I’m a little crazy and like to finish a job once I start it….and with little ones that’s impossible. I get frustrated and grumpy, and that’s not fair on them.

So really, my kids are my life at the moment. This is normal, and I know it is a moment in time. Soon they will be off to school, and before I can blink they’ll be out of the house. My mom often tells me how much she misses having her kids as kids, and to enjoy it while it lasts. There is plenty of time to have a nice house….this is a limited time of play and silliness.

I am so grateful for all I have. Once upon a time I feared I wasn’t meant to have kids. Now I have been blessed with 3 gorgeous little darlings. Sure I haven’t slept well for years. Sure I generally have a stain from spitup somewhere on my 4 year old clothing. Sure I generally end up sharing a bed with 2-3 kids….but a smile or a kiss or my baby asleep in my arms is worth all that and more. I cherish all the moments because they change so quickly!

My daughter Ella is 3 1/2 now. She talks and pretends, she’s loves letters and is starting to draw. She started by drawing what she dubs her “funny face” and then that morphed into drawing faces and telling us who they are, and now she is drawing other things like ducks! Once she was my tiny squishy baby who I would have lovely naps with back when it was just me and her all day. She was my chubby little 1 year old who would only go to sleep with momma. She was my non-verbal 2 year old who got scared at the drop of the hat! How did those years go so quickly??

My Annabelle is 2 and 3 months now. She has the most beautiful long brown hair that just curls up at the ends. She has a gorgeous smile with a dimple in one cheek. She’s in her own little world sometimes, but she’s clever, inquisitive and a darling little charmer. She loves to cuddle and has to hold mommy or daddy’s hand to go to sleep. Where did my placid, happy baby go? Or my 1 year old who would crawl so fast after her sister? She changes everyday, I have to watch closely, but she’s always learning, always trying something new.

Alex is 6 months old in 2 days!! How fast has that time flown!!!! I so distinctly remember the moments waiting for him to arrive, and smiling at him in hospital….and then it’s as if time has blurred and I am in this moment. He is a big chubby boy, with dimples and bright blue/gray eyes. He rolls over so fast I sometimes wonder if he has gotten up and crawled when my back was turned. He sits up and eats mashed food, and he has to be rocked to sleep. He’ll be crawling within weeks the way he is already trying.

I really need to write more so I remember. 🙂

PS….I cut my hair to just below my shoulders….ahh! So short!