Failure

So, I’ve got a bummer entry for you. I’ll whine, and then I’m going to go clean the kitchen and make muffins. (Or brownies. Hmmm)

I just feel like I let myself down all the time. I get all excited for something, and then just don’t follow through, and either disappoint myself, or stress out when I’m having to do something at the last minute. And yes, I totally know how to be organised, but sometimes I just can’t get motivated to do a certain thing.

For example, my caking. I’ve been doing a few projects, but they’re pretty much freebies. I’ve designed a flyer, but I think I’m so scared that I’ll fail, or succeed, that I let myself down by not doing anything with it! Which is lame, because I really really enjoy what I’m doing, and really (really!) want to do well with it!

I’m also trying to be a better mommy, but it’s so easy to get distracted by other things, and FAR too easy to just let them play in the lounge while I do my thing. I need to start teaching my daughter things, and taking them out to explore!

And yet. Here I am typing about what I should do.

I’m so lame.

Ok, brownies it is! I need some sweet comfort. And then I’ll walk with the kids after to burn off the calories lol.

Steph

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You’re hard on yourself my dear. I think maybe small steps towards our goals are an easier proposition than a giant leap. Pace yourself. Hugs x

You’re hard on yourself my dear. I think maybe small steps towards our goals are an easier proposition than a giant leap. Pace yourself. Hugs x

November 24, 2010

I feel the same way. I feel I haven’t accomplished anything! I have self published three books and writing a third and I think they’re all rubbish. But Hubby says they’re great! I excite myself with my cooking and the food is great but then I feel I could do better.

November 24, 2010

I feel the same way. I feel I haven’t accomplished anything! I have self published three books and writing a third and I think they’re all rubbish. But Hubby says they’re great! I excite myself with my cooking and the food is great but then I feel I could do better.

November 24, 2010

You are like me! We are such critics of ourselves. Ugh! I’m always feeling like a disappointment. But then I hear about how much my friends and people in the Branch appreciate what I do. It makes me realize if things aren’t as bad as I thought. But I know what you mean by not having motivation at times. I get that way, too. Sometimes we just have to give it what we can. I think you make amazing cakes. And who knows! You might get a good customer. 🙂 You never know unless you really try. Prayer helps a lot, too. I’m glad you decided on the brownies. Those sound good to me, too. lol. RYN: haha, I LOVE how you were like, “if you want my opinion… too bad I’m giving it anyway.” lol. And you are so right. It hurts to face that truth that I really should work on myself first. Sometimes I get so lazy and just not want to think about it. But no matter my weight size, I really do need to work on a healthier lifestyle. I need to learn to love me. I also love that you said “stupid males.” haha. That is SO true. But we love them anyway. 😛 I also think retail therapy is a good idea. I will have to try that. 🙂 And sorry about confusing you with my colors! I

November 24, 2010

You are like me! We are such critics of ourselves. Ugh! I’m always feeling like a disappointment. But then I hear about how much my friends and people in the Branch appreciate what I do. It makes me realize if things aren’t as bad as I thought. But I know what you mean by not having motivation at times. I get that way, too. Sometimes we just have to give it what we can. I think you make amazing cakes. And who knows! You might get a good customer. 🙂 You never know unless you really try. Prayer helps a lot, too. I’m glad you decided on the brownies. Those sound good to me, too. lol. RYN: haha, I LOVE how you were like, “if you want my opinion… too bad I’m giving it anyway.” lol. And you are so right. It hurts to face that truth that I really should work on myself first. Sometimes I get so lazy and just not want to think about it. But no matter my weight size, I really do need to work on a healthier lifestyle. I need to learn to love me. I also love that you said “stupid males.” haha. That is SO true. But we love them anyway. 😛 I also think retail therapy is a good idea. I will have to try that. 🙂 And sorry about confusing you with my colors! I

November 24, 2010

… I didn’t know someone else had them. lol.

November 24, 2010

… I didn’t know someone else had them. lol.

November 26, 2010

RYN: Thanks 🙂

November 26, 2010

RYN: Thanks 🙂

November 27, 2010

you are so not a failure .. take time for you , and while you do the girls can entertain themselves , it is good for all.

November 27, 2010

you are so not a failure .. take time for you , and while you do the girls can entertain themselves , it is good for all.