Here I Be

Couldn’t think of an eyecatching title but there you have it lol

I haven’t really updated or wrote this week cause I really didn’t have much to talk about. Life is the same. Get up,  go to work,  go home,  Little league mom it up, go home, go to bed. Kinda like that old McDonald’s commercial lol. On the off days I am usually at church but this week I haven’t been able because they are killin my husband He just found out that they have to work all weekend AGAIN and he is sooo mad. He doesn’t mind working overtime but taking up Sunday. Oh no that is ridiculous. Yeah they get double time but what’s the point if your missing out on your spiritual filling every week. This will be the second time he’s had to do this and he is already grumpy about it. I’m praying for some  changes to come through. They are really trying to kill him! They have him working and doing jobs he’s never done before and when he messes up everybody looks at him crazy so he’s been pretty upset lately.

Speaking of prayer. I told you all we were doing a fast this week right. Well I’ve done the fast physically but I cannot get there spiritually or mentally. I know it has ALOT to do with me being lazy, but I haven’t been reading my bible or praying for REAL at all. To me there is a difference between praying those patty cake please bless me prayers and really getting in God’s face and have a back and forth conversation with him and I know I’ve been leaning on the patty cake prayers lately. Shame on me! lol But I can’t seem to stop the cycle. I don’t know what the deal is. I don’t feel fallen from grace or anything like that but I know I ‘gots ta do mo betta’ when it comes to my relationship with God. I’ve

I’ve been reading and noting all of you so yall know I’m still around but that’s the gist of my life right now.  

OH! OH! Last but not least I wanted to include the lyrics to this song and the vid for one of my faves. She knows who she is. And she better take a break from her busy life to read me lol. This song gave me strength and the courage to walk away from a verbally and physically abusive relationship where I could hold my head up high and not fall for the bullcrap that was handed to me *hugs*

Ex Factor written by Lauryn Hill

It could all be so simple
But you’d rather make it hard
Loving you is like a battle
And we both end up with scars
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will

Is this just a silly game
That forces you to act this way
Forces you to scream my name
Then pretend that you can’t stay
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will
Hook:
No matter how I think we grow
You always seem to let me know
It ain’t workin’
It ain’t workin’
And when I try to walk away
You’d hurt yourself to make me stay
This is crazy
This is crazy

I keep letting you back in
How can I explain myself
As painful as this thing has been
I just can’t be with no one else
See I know what we got to do
You let go and I’ll let go too
‘Cause no one’s hurt me more than you
And no one ever will

Repeat Hook

Care for me, care for me
I know you care for me

There for me, there for me
Said you’d be there for me

Cry for me, cry for me
You said you’d die for me

Give to me, give to me
Why won’t you live for me
(Repeat)

Unfortunately I cannot view Youtube at work but I can grab the links and embed them to this page. Hopefully you guys get a chance to hear the song that the lyrics are posted to above. This song I feel is one of the greatest songs ever written. Mainly because it changed my life.

 

~He that hath no rule over his own spirit is like a city that is broken down, and without walls.~

 

Proverbs 25:28

 

‘I grew up penecostal and I now attend an apostolic church, but I have long ago taken off the denominational boundaries. I’m sick of religion and tradition. I’m more concerned about relationship with God through Jesus Christ.’

~me