todays rambling

i feel pretty down today, or atleast for the last 10 hours. which isnt very enjoyable. we started getting into more therapeutic work today at school so that was really cool i really did enjoy that. HR came and talked to us today about the crazy weird fight at school, i also did alot of studying. i think living by myself has gotten pretty depressing. im counting down the days until my roommate comes back. things at work felt weird today too and i started thinking about my ex bff and it started to hurt alittle more today than normal. i also have court today. im not looking forward to that. im praying that they’ll be like accepting of me only paying half of what is owed. i feel like that is fair i mean i personally think that i shouldnt have to pay any of it but since i didnt get my name off the lease im going to have to pay some of it, that is my responsibility. ooooo i am starting a new book series though, well manga series. One Piece. im actually quite excited about it. i think im promising myself one day a week, god i am gonna be so tired because of court today. but hey i gotta get through it. i know i can do it and i cant call off. i desperately need the money for this crap of them taking my money. oh and finals are coming up so thats pretty stressful too. i dont think im taking the best care of myself and im trying to be okay but im having a harder than normal time right now. and thats okay. i just idk, im frustrated that im really tired all the time lately too. like it sucks. but its whatever. i made this white chicken lasagna for my clients. i hope its good. who knows. i think i want a distraction but i know i should be avoiding distractions. okay. i gotta wake up at noon. i can do that. ill be a little tired but it is a pretty good excuse for me to get coffee. oh how i wish i didnt have school tomorrow though. but i should be grateful. i have an opportunity that alot of people dont get. its rough but its okay. i want to make more leggy frogs!!! i do like crocheting and i came across a cute leggy frog i made a couple months back and ahhhhh i need to make another one, theyre just so cute and they would be such a great gift. okay bye for today