frustrated

well, my aunt died, im in a lot of debt, i have to work almost everyday and get roughly 4 days off a month. its getting pretty challenging to stay positive. i did get more fish though so that is pretty exciting. theyre pretty cute which is nice and i had an amazing weekend with my friends. it was so fun. i had a really good time. for some reason im like super tired. well i shouldnt say just some reason, i want to start reading more. paperback is more expensive but i do prefer paperback, i just hate waiting for things. i was doing good with patience for awhile but lately ive been really struggling with even driving for 20 minutes because it takes too long which is ridiculous. im not sure if my meds are helping if im being honest with myself. i dont know what is helping and what isnt anymore. i think im just weirdly focusing on the negative. so i need to get back to the positive. i finish the subtle art of not giving a fuck. amazing book. there was another book recommendation in it, the denial of death. i think ill read that next. i dont think i want to do it as an audio book though. i think i want to actually sit and read it, it would be nice to read it at work and when im just like chilling. i wonder if kindle would let me listen to it as well as ready it because i dont believe i can read anything on audible which is honestly so annoying. but its whatever. okay bye