Trains, Planes, and Automobiles

So here I find myself again writing, but unsure of what to write about.  I still can’t seem to find an apartment and I really need one.  It would be better for me and Derek to have a place of our own.  I like were we are staying our friends are the best but it’s very cramped and I think that there would be less fighting if we had our own place.  John finally gets to start school monday and I can’t wait.  My first full week of work is this week as well and I kinda excited to see how I can handle it.  I made a friend at work, she is younger than me and I think bi but I’m not sure. 

Life is so strange, it always throws curve balls.  On rare occasions it gives you small glimpses of pure happiness.  Those moments are the ones I crave, it gets me through life just waiting to catch one. 

I had a bad dream last night, my bf told me in the dream that he wasn’t interested in getting serious anymore and it was all my fault.  Wonder what it meant.

My ex, the douche, sent me a text this morning out of the blue.  It pisses me off because he tells Meg’s he hates me and wants nothing to do with me but then tells me he wants to be my friend and never wants to lie to me anymore.  Typical of him though, I shouldn’t expect anything less from him.  I don’t understand why he feels that he has to lie to us both anymore, he’s not with either of us.

Anyways enough stupid man ranting.  My man and I are still getting along good, which just makes me so happy.  I thought he was going to be spending the night in JT with his mom and grandmother but I guess he’s not.  Which is good cause I really can’t seem to fall asleep without him near me.  That’s not a good sign if he ever leaves me I think I will have a hard time of it.  I can’t predict the future but I hope we make it, he was talking to me about having a real wedding ceremony but without that piece of paper that makes it legal.  I don’t know if I could do that, I would be so afraid that he would just leave me.  It wouldn’t be real to me I guess.  It was a very sweet thought and I really like the idea but he is afraid of commitment and I really want it.  But if that is what would make him comfortable then I guess I could do it.  I love him.

Cool news my Derek wants to get me a tattoo and asked me what I wanted, I told him it was a surprise.  His nickname is Casper so I’m going to get a little Casper ghost somewhere on my body.  I just don’t know where yet.  I think he will like that.  I refuse to get any man’s name tattooed on me but I see nothing wrong with a ghost.  Maybe I’ll get it on my inner hip or maybe I don’t know.  If anyone has suggestions let me know I need an idea of where to put it.

Random thought – Can a player change his ways and settle down?

~Blissfully Happy