My Cat Just Fell In The Toilet

So I’m sitting here awake at almost 6 am and wondering why I’m awake.  The funny things that come to mind when one is sleep deprived.  My soon to be husband and I just had a strange fight over silly stuff again.  Well I guess it wasn’t too silly since we were fighting but now that I sit back and ponder.  Apparently I’m a smart ass, lmao really.  i can’t help it anymore it’s become a defense mechanism and I don’t know how to shut it off.  I really need to try because I really want this to work.  He has been the best thing that’s happened to me in a really long time.  I can totally see me spending the rest of my life with the guy and growing old with him.  I know that’s corny but I can’t help it I’m just a corn ball.  But as I sit here and watch the sun come up with him laying next to me, snoring I’d like to add lol, I can’t figure out why my sleep deprived body won’t go to sleep.  I’ve never felt this secure with a man before and at the same time so afraid I will lose him or fuck it up.  My brain just won’t shut down and I hate it.

Random Thought—My cat is fucking pregnant isn’t that just lovely.

Sp I need to sleep now I just figured I’d rant a little on here now that I have internet access yay.

~~Sleep is overrated~~