Here We Go

Ok so I’m going to try this diary stuff again.  The only problem is I don’t have internet access so I’m going to try this on my phone.  Please forgive any mistakes because it’s very fun writing on my phone,  lol.

Just a little fyi everything is white on my phone so I have no idea what this looks like.

I went through and re-read my diary and came to the realization that I used to be very witty,  hmm maybe one day I’ll get that back.   For now I’m just going to try and write I guess we will see where this goes.

So 7 years of marriage, holy shit I never thought I’d make it this far.  There’s been lots of ups and downs but overall I think I’m finally happy with my life.  It could just be old age is catching up with me who knows.  Life has taught me lots of things I guess I’m just finally content with where I am in life.

All this is leading to this crazy thought on this cold February night in New York, my first baby is turning 18 in 12 days. You know when I first looked into his chubby little face I wondered what I would be like when he turned 18. I wondered where my life would take me. I wondered what he would be like. What kind of man he would be. So so many thoughts and questions. I can’t even believe the many twists and turns our lives have take but over all I couldn’t be happier. I feel like, even with all the mistakes I’ve made, I have done my job as a parent. I never thought I could do it I always thought I would mess it up some how, but I didn’t. I’m so proud of the man he has become.

So enough patting myself on the back for now I missed this site so much I can’t even begin to explain it. I’m going to try and commit to writing here at least once a month if I can. If I can find a way to justify paying for it that is. I feel like this will be a great way to get myself writing again. But who knows, I’m going to try at least.

~Much Needed Reprieve