Why me??

I don’t know why I even exist. I can’t live a lie. Both Dave and Mom have given up hope for me and so have I really. I hate disappointing them… and myself. I feel like a giant failure. Like why the fuck do some people get special treatment around here?! This is supposed to be a loving family? MY LEFT FOOT. 

People like G and D get special treatment! I am bloody well sick of it all. I want this to stop. I have had shit up to my ears. Enough is enough.

Sam