Still confused…but…oh well huh

Thanks for all the notes guys!  I appreciate them.  I’m still just as confused as ever.  Guess you could say we had our first argument and it was over something really stupid.  I was being a big selfish I guess.  He’s been sick with a nasty cold and he’s grouchy as ever.  I told him being sick was no reason to treat my like crap…and I dunno it was really dumb.  I just don’t know why for the first 5 months or whatever I’ve been real laid back and patient.  I haven’t wanted to know what he’s thinking I haven’t …cared…that’s the wrong way to say it because i know I do and have cared, but I just am starting to get a little insecure.  I just need to get back in the frame of mind …take care of Mason and let the rest happen as it will…or won’t lol. 

Anyways, went out lastnight.  Me and tequilla are not very good friends anymore.  Been tasting it all fricken day long.  I don’t drink near as much as I used to.  I hate that I even started again, but I just needed a night out lastnight and my sister was willing to babysit, so why not.  You won’t see me doing that again for a while….blah

Anyways, I don’t really have much to write about.  Just wanted to say hey and thanks for all the ntoes.