Finally an Update

It’s been a while since I’ve updated, I’ve been meaning to, but there for a while I wasn’t sure what to say.  A couple of weeks ago I had a major scare.  I thought I had miscarried, I was so sure.  I went to the doctor last Wednesday and everything was fine.  I seen the heartbeat, and I was so relieved.  I’m still confused about J though.  He still hasnt’ told a single soul.  It’s like he’s ashamed of it or something, and I can’t figure it out.  He knows I went to the dr, but didn’t really ask many questions.  I just told him everything was fine and that was it…Things have been kinda rocky with us anyways.  I don’t really know why, I just seem so unhappy all the time.  I don’t know if it’s horomones or what, but we never do anything, we hardly ever talk…and it’s really bugging me.  Anyways, I am in the process of looking for a new job because I quit my other one.  The money was good, but the shift work sucked and I think it had something to do with why I was bleeding and cramping so bad because since I haven’t been working I’ve been fine.  It could be all in my head, but I dunno.  I’m looking for a little less physical demanding job, whether it be an office job or a bank teller job.  Wish me luck.  Anyways, going to cut this short for now, hopefully I’ll be back to update for my 9th week tomorrow.