So much has happened

so much has happened since being gone!

2015 was the worst year of my life! My mom ended up getting very sick at the end of June. We kept telling her she needed to get checked but she insisted she was fine.  By the end of July she finally went to the dr. He misdiagnosed her twice and at this point she could barely walk on her own.  Finally he sent her to another dr where they did a bone marrow biopsy. We found out beginning of september she had MDS(rare cancer, pretty much pre-leukemia) so she was in the hospital a few times and had to get blood and platelets. They sent her to a “better hospital” with a dr that knew more about this MDS.  Come to find out he didnt know much at all! They put this thing in her for blood clots and gave her chemo and pretty much sent her home. Mind you they released her and she was full of fluid from her feet up to her stomach! My mom couldn’t walk or hardley breath and they said she was fine to go home. She came home 1 day and my dad had to take her back to the local hospital because she had NO blood left inside her. The bloodwork they did showed 0!!!! This was in oct. She celebrated her 61st bday in the hospital. She had drs in her room daily telling her she was going to die.  My dad had to tell them to stop coming in telling her. She knew she was. She told all the drs i know im dying and im ready im going to heaven. Some of them got upset she even said that. About 2 weeks later we all thought she was getting better. We all had to make sure when we went into her room we put a gown, mask and gloves. I caught a cna in her room with NOTHING on. And then 2 weeks later we had to say goodbye. I went in on november 1st and she wasnt talking to much she just kept looking at me at that time i didnt know why. She ate a little bit but chocked some on it so she refused anymore. My dad was picking on her like normal, he told her on their anniversary nov. 2nd he was gonna go to red lobster and bring her the receipt. Boy did he get the looks lol. Shortly after we all left. I told her i was bringing the kids in to see her 2 days later and i loved her very much and to keep fighting. Dad went home to build her a wheelchair ramp bc she was going to come home after it was done. Oh i should mention to weeks before this they wanted her to go to a nursing home for rehab. She said im not going to a nursing home and thats final! The next morning my sister called and told me mom only had a couple hours left and we all needed to go say our goodbyes.  I drove myself to the hospital( big mistake) but Jason was saying oh she will be fine just like last time (we had a couple scares before) and i was so irritated i didnt want to wait for him. So once i got to the hospital and seen my mom i knew it was her time i called Jason and had him come in. She passed 2 hours later. I held my mothers hand as she took her last breath. She died on my parents 36th wedding anniversary.

Growing up i never once seen my dad cry. When my mom got sick and we knew just how bad it was i seen him cry a lot. As he put it he cried like a baby. He kept telling her it should have been him bc he is 12 years older. Once mom knew she was going to pass away she didn’t shed a tear. Actually she called me a cry baby and told me to stop lol. Before all this my mom cried like a baby over things (thats a trait i get from her) but its like mom and dad switched roles

On a happier note. 5/31/16 i adopted Kassidy(my stepdaughter at the time) which she had begged my hubby  Jason(her dad) for years to let me adopt her. Finally he agreed and her mom agreed to sign off her rights. We suprised her tho. We went and got everything done we needed to and her bio mom had to sign paperwork and then we waited for 30 days and once we received the court date we told her. She cried very hard and was so excited!! When the day came i was so happy but so sad that my mom wouldnt be there with us(in person) but i knew she was smiling down on us. We changed Kassidys middle name to my moms middle name(she was happy to change it) but when the judge asked if the middle name jad a special meaning i lost it and so did Kassidy.

For those who dont know Kassidy is my husbands biological daughter. When we learned she was his we got custody so she has lived with us since she was 18 months.

Well since this is long enough i will end this here. Sorry it was all over the place. I will write a back story for those of you who are new and dont know who i am.

💗Jen💗