No Halloween Fun.

I get emails from Louisville Halloween.  They give updates on what haunted houses there will be during September and October.  I fucking love Halloween.  I usually get really excited during this time of year.  But I was looking at the pictures in the email of people having fun, and I just felt sad.  I know I can’t do those things.  I can’t go out with friends, because my BF would think I was cheating or something.  I can’t go with him because there is no way I’d be able to STAND going with him.  Anytime we go anywhere or do anything, he makes things miserable and unenjoyable.  He’ll start bitching about something, or complaining.  And if he’s not doing that, he’s just not a fun person.  He has no sense of humor either.  If we did end up going, I’d probably throw him in front of someone with a chainsaw in hopes it was actually real.  What a hopeless,  miserable feeling.