Birthday

So I turned 37 on Monday.   I took a couple days off.   I’m back at work today and I’m feel really down in the dumps.  I’m 37 and I don’t have much to show for it.   I’m not happy.   I’m miserable and depressed 99% of the time.   Is this what life really is?  I just work, eat, and sleep?  This is really all it is?   What’s the fucking point?  I don’t get it.  Why was I brought in this world?   I don’t understand.   And I know how shallow it sounds, but it’s like no one cared it was my birthday.   Made me feel really shitty.  If they don’t care about me on that one day, then it seems like that really don’t give a shit about me any other day.

I’m just really depressed.   I should not be this old and unhappy.