Anyone Understand This? Because I Don’t.

I keep trying to understand people.  I just don’t.  Can anyone give me their opinion on this situation?  Because I don’t understand it at all.  So, a month ago, I went to get a tattoo.  I had already gotten a tattoo from this guy once, and that first time, I thought I felt a “vibe” between me and the artist because as soon as we started talking, we had this instant chemistry and we found out we had a LOT of things in common.  I even thought he was flirting with me, but I wasn’t sure.  I have pretty low self-esteem, so I just told myself he’s just a nice dude, don’t look too much into it.  So, a month later, I decided I wanted another tattoo and messaged him.  He gave me an appointment as the last person of the day… so we would be in his shop by ourselves.

So that second time I went in for my tattoo, he immediately started flirting with me to the point it was unmistakable this time.  We both even confessed we were attracted to each other and would definitely fuck each other (LOL).  I’ll try to keep it short and say he really, truly seemed to genuinely like me, and for me to say that is a lot, because I’m always thinking of the worst-case scenario, like “Eh, they’re just being nice, or joking with me.”  Even when I was with Troy a couple months ago, I knew he wasn’t SUPER into me.  I could just feel it.  I knew it.  So when he stopped messaging me, it didn’t surprise me at all.  But this guy was saying stuff like, “Come see me anytime!”  At the end of the night, we ended up making out a little too.  Then he gave me his number and he was like, “You can blow up my phone!  Seriously!  I don’t care!”  I was like, “Okay, I’ll probably text you tomorrow or something.”  He was like, “Do it!”

So, I was really excited that night.  He made me feel wanted and liked for the first time in a long time.  So, I texted him the next day just a coup0le of times, nothing serious, just trying to chat, and he just replied with one-word responses.  I was like, “Okay, he’s a busy dude.  I get it.”  So, I tried again the next day, and got short answers again, and I even asked if he wanted to hang out sometime and it took him 4 hours to respond with, “Sure, I’d love to.”  And I said, “Okay, let me know when you’re free.”  And he didn’t respond to that.  I left him alone for a couple days, then I tried to message him again that Saturday.  I told him I had a couple things I wanted to give him and asked if I could stop by to see him and he said he wasn’t working, he was doing something with his kid.  I understood that.  But he didn’t say, “Rain check, or I’ll message you later.”  So, I gave up on trying, and he hasn’t messaged me since then.  That was like 4 weeks ago.  I’ve heard nothing from him.

So, my question is, WHAT THE FUCK?!  Why act like you’re super interested, AND KISS ME, only to fucking do a 180 overnight?  What is that?  Why?  Can someone please explain it to me?  Because I don’t fucking understand.

And at this point, how am I not supposed to think there is something wrong with me?  How am I not supposed to believe I’m just unlovable or weird?  How am I not supposed to just believe that I only attract creeps and abusive people?  How?  Why?  WHAT. THE. FUCK.?!