my current life

Hello my ghosties I might be taking a break from Scratch and probly a long one to. It’s none of you I’m struggling a lot with mental and a little bit of physical heath and im going to share about it. So I recently found out i actually do have depression And it has made me more emotionless and half the Time i fake my smile and my laugh and it doesn’t Help that i get bullied and yes i broke up with my bf And yes i have a gf and I won’t take any disrespect From any scratchers. But i have had some close Loved ones die and i have been left out, talked about And used. And i belive i dont have feelings and i feel Guilty when I shouldn’t and i feel like a idiot and like I’m stupid as heck and i try hard in school but i fail And i feel like im always a failuare and like a burden And i get forgotten about ALOT and i get bullied daily And if. You feel how i feel get help dont try to Handle it on your own like i am doing only you Guys and a couple of friends know how i feel And the way i feel sucks it absolutely sucks And i dont feel happy, exited, or nice I only feel sad,stupid, and mad and it sucks and Sorry if i brought some of you guys down with me I’m truly sorry very sorry. (And yes im very apologetic and i know that) I may seem happy but im not and im sorry for Being me and i know i suck but that’s ok i know i suck and i know people hate me and it sucks and to feel better i watch Sam and Colby, or the triplets