Being Strong Means Breaking Down

Everything is really going to be okay.  I have been in tears the past few days, thinking of the worst, that I am not going to make it on my own.  But I can…  Seeing this post on Facebook made me feel better last night.

My best Friend is moving to Las Vegas at the end of this Month.  I’m taking it very hard.  She’s been my buddy, my rock, my inspiration, and most of all, she’s my friend with out judgement.  She’s my only friend.  Then, my other friend, he is wanting to move to Portland with his girlfriend.  When they both leave, I have nobody. 😪

So… Last night I was a disaster.  I’m Leaving my Husband, My best friends are moving away, they are my support, and I’m on this on my own.  I can do this… I can make it happen.  It’s hard to tell myself that because fear is holding me back.  But I don’t want to live in a house where I’m disapproved on anything I do, say or anything!

Maybe last night was my breaking point to be strong again.  To let it all out and, get back up, wipe my tears, take a deep breath and keep moving.  I know leaving will create a better environment for my kids.  I don’t want them to grow up and think its okay for a Man to treat them the way their father treated me.

I can do this! Just gotta keep on telling myself… I can do this!