I am my favourite subject.

My own Tabula Rasa.

Scar me Beautiful. Scar me Flawless.

† I’m back… †

Howdy all. Long time, no see. I decided I should use this diary again. I don’t have anything interesting to say, suprise suprise. I am doing ok. I am seeing a psychologist regularly now, and am on some terrible anti-depressants, which I hope to change. I have two beautiful kittens, supportive friends and family and a job that allows me to spoil myself. But I am still unhappy. And ungrateful. It wasn’t always this way. Maybe it was. I’m an asshole. Yeehah.

What’s your name? Jessicka

Zodiac sign?  Taurus.

Are you…
Gay, Bisexual, Straight, Confused, "Open-minded", "Liberated", or Asexual? Open-Minded.

Dominant (kneel to the master) or submissive (spank me daddy)? I’m a switch.

Sadistic (do you like to cause other people pain)?Yes.

Masochistic (do you like to receive pain)? Yes.

Sadomasochistic (do you like to cause yourself pain)?Yes.

Do you like fetishes and all sorts of naughty stuff? Yes. Masks…

Bondage (being tied, tying up people)? Oh yes.

Biting? Fuck yes.

Massages? Fuck yes.

Scratching? Oh yes.

Whips? 😉

Role-play? Yep 😀

Chocolate syrup? Nah.

Handcuffs? Yeah

Hot wax? Yep.

Latex? Oh my fucking god yes.

Rubber? Never tried it.

Vinyl? Yes 😀

Leather? I prefer vinyl or latex.

Whipped Cream? Mmm not really.

Honey? Nah.

Candles? Are a must.

Pornography? Yup.

Ice Cubes? No.

Boot worship? I dont have a problem with it.

Gags? Yes 😉

Choking? Only if I trust him.

Piercing? YES.

Cutting? yes.

Corsets? If I could, I’d live in them.

Do you have any other fetishes you would like to add? Not telling 😉

Have a favorite obsession (would you go nuts if someone scratched your back, gave you roses, cooked dinner, let you dress them like a pirate, watched porn with you)? I love masks and blood.

What kind of build do you like (scrawny, cut, round)? I don’t like thin men, but I don’t like super muscular men. I like them strong, but sinewy.

Chest size? 12D

Favorite body parts? Of mine, my eyes, hair and lips.

Younger or older? Preferably older.

Shorter or taller? I’m 5’1…everybody’s taller!

Long or short hair? Both

Any specific hair and eye colors you like? Dark hair and dark eyes. Mmmmm.

Do you like them to make the first move or you? Them most of the time.

Do you like them in makeup? Eyeliner is HOTT

Anything you like to see them wear (corsets, leather pants, skirts, dog collars, birthday suits)? Dog collar, latex hood. Mmm.

Anything that really turns you off (clothing, yogurt, potatoes)? Selfishness and uncleanliness.

Any other comments? Nah. I’m good.

Had sex? Yes

Had oral sex? Yes

Had anal sex? No, never will.

Used more than 3 positions in one session? Yes

Devoted a whole day to sex? Yes ;D

Had noise complaints from neighbors during a sex session? Only from flatmates.

Received open praise for sexual technique? Yes

Written an erotic story? Yes

Fallen or lost balance during sex? Yes, I slid off the bed, haha.

Brought partner to climax using only hands?Yes.

Brought partner to climax using only mouth?Yep.

Had sex while totally dress

ed? Yes, but it wasn’t as fun.

Had sex while standing up? Uh huh.

Erotically licked feet or sucked toes? No, I can’t imagine myself doing it, either.

Had sex during a "monthly visit"? No. I love blood, but not menstrual blood.

Used whipped cream/soft chocolate erotically? Yes.

Used ice erotically?Yes.

Used hot melted wax erotically? Yes.

Shaved your pubic hair?Yes, and waxed.

Used a sex toy? Yes.

Used a vibrator? Oh yes.

Used an inanimate object (bottle, candle, hairbrush, etc.)?Yes.

Used an inanimate object while having sex with a partner? No.

Obtained money or a favor for sex? No

Paid or granted a favor for sex? No

Given sex in sympathy? No.

Had sex with a virgin? Yes, when I lost it. We were both virgins.

Ever cheated on someone? Unfortunately, yeah.

Had sex with someone 10 years older/younger than you? Yes

Had sex with your landlord? Helllllllllll no.

Had sex with a teacher? No

Had sex with a boss? No

Had sex with a relative? WTF? no way.

Had sex with two members of the same family? No

Had sex with a pet? omfg, no!

Had sex with a farm animal? WTF??

Had sex with someone the same day that you met them? Yes

Had sex with someone whose name you didn’t know? No

Sex with someone you never spoke to/spoke different languages? Yes.

Had more than 10 sexual partners? No.

Had more than 100 sexual partners? No

Had two separate sexual partners within 24 hours? No

Had a menage-a-trois? Yes.

Had group sex (more than 3)? No

Participated in a swap/swinging club? No

Had two regular partners at the same time? Yes.

Had sex in a public place? Yes I did.

If so where? In my fave. club.

Had sex outdoors in broad daylight? Yes

Had sex on the roof of a building? I am afraid of heights :S

Had sex in a stationary car? Yes.

Had sex in a moving car? No.

Are you a member of the mile high club? Nope, I hate flying.

Had sex outdoors at night? Yes

Had two sexual partners at the same time unaware of each other? Yes.

Had sex in the host’s bedroom while a day guest (party/social visit)? Yes.

Had sex in the host’s bedroom while an overnight guest? Yep.

Had sex in a public room while an overnight guest (kitchen etc.)? Yes

Had sex at your office or other work area? Hahahaha no. It’d be impossible at my work.

Met partner during work hours to have sex? No

Had sex in a public restroom? Yes.

Had sex on public transportation? No

Had sex in a dark theatre? No.

Had sex in the water? Yes, and it was fucking good.

Had sex in an elevator? No

Had sex in a cemetery? …

Had sex in a store dressing room? No

Used alcohol to lower resistance to sexual advances? No.

Allowed yourself to be felt up by a stranger? Yeah

Looked at a nude magazine? Yep

Looked at an explicit magazine (actual sex acts)? yep

Seen a live stripper? I met a live porn star, she said I was hot  ;D

Seen a live sex show? Yup

Watched someone having sex without their knowledge? Lmfao, no.

Showered with a partner? Yes

Flashed someone (breasts, genital, mooned)? Yes

Streaked with a group of six or more? Yup.

Stripped for someone?,/b> Yes

Stripped for a group of 3 or more? No

Participated at a nude beach or nudist camp? No

Been the only nude person in a group of 3 or more? No

Played strip poker (or a similar game involving nudity)?no.

Showered while someone watched? Yes

Masturbated? Yes

Masturbated while someone watched? Yes

Masturbated for a group of three or more people? No

Masturbated covertly in public? No.

Had sex while you knew someone was watching? No

Been walked in on while having sex? Yes :S

Walked in on someone having sex? Yup.

Had phone sex? Yes

Watched a porno film with a sexual partner? yes

Been the photographer for a nude photo? Yes.

Been photographed nude? Yes.

Been photographed having sex? No

Been videotaped having sex? No

Watched a regular sexual partner having sex with someone else? No.

Role-played a sexual situation? yes

Taken part in transvestism? No

Used a blindfold during sex? yes

Used handcuffs during sex? Yes.

Inflicted pain during sex? Yes.

Received pain during sex? yes

Used nipple clips? Yes

Used sex dice?No, I have used sex cards though.

Used whip, chains, cat-o-nine tails, etc. during sex? Yup.

Received an electric shock during sex? No

Drawn blood (scratched, bit)? Yes.

Used auto-erotic strangulations? Yes.

Pierced your genitals or nipples? No

Continued sex until raw or bleeding? Yes

Do you do dead people?Fuck yes. Haha.