Life goes on

Dear Diary,
Its been a long time since I have written.  I am doing well and the school year is coming to an end.  Next year will be my last …. I have spent time osolating back and forth about leaving but when the administration told me that they are putting FIVE bilingual kindergartens in our school…that sealed the deal!  Don’t get me wrong, I think they are very cute, but they wear me out!  There will be 30 to 31 kids in each class and I don’t speak the language.  Everything I say has to be repeated by the aide who will be bilingual. 
It’s difficult enough to teach regular kindergarten, so add the language barrier ….. SHEESH.
My son’s wife is due any time now.  I just hope I will be able to see the baby.  She hates me and made that perfectly clear in an email she sent me after her baby shower.  She in essence called me a self centered bitch.  Nice! 
I guess it was because I spent over $500.00 worth of baby things for the shower. 
She is STILL peeved about the dress I wore to the wedding.  She insisted it was white and it was NOT white and anyway….ITS OVER, GET OVER IT. 

My white dress  LOL…that ruined her wedding.

I can’t have dinner with my son any more because she said I am putting a strain on their marriage by wanting to keep a relationship with my son.  I told her I would be more then happy if she would come to dinner too….but no.
She told me she would like to have a relationship with me but from afar…LOL 
I have been nothing but nice to her but I guess that isn’t good enough…
I sent the letter to my son and spoke to him on the phone about it.  I told him that the letter was not only disrespectful to me, but to him also.  If she really loved him, she would never do that and find some way to "tolerate" her mother in law. 

Well we’ll see what happens.  I frankly don’t care for her anylonger….I can tolerate her but I choose not to deal with her.  I told my son that if this were any other situation I would have been long gone, but because I love him, I am hanging in there.
I have lost a lot of sleep over this but no more.  That letter sealed that deal…I could care less anymore about her.
She has some serious issues…and I have no interest in helping her through them….
My son is very upset about this and he is trying to balance this…I told him not to worry about it….Hope she doesn’t ruin her marriage over her unforgiving ways….
I am trying not to get too involved emotionally thinking of the birth of my first and probably only grandchild.  I just don’t go there….

I have several retirement celebrations to attend the next few weeks.  I will work this summer at the same job I have been working the past three years BUT this will be my last summer there.  I will  be packing up some of my things this summer to get ready to move next summer.  YIKES….Didn’t I just move????

LYB
Peace