Rough week

Hormones.

I’m sure you all know when you’re pregnant your hormones go crazy.

Did you also know it happens when you wean? I don’t recommend mixing the two.

And Riley has been so awful this week. If I’m on the couch she climbs up and all over me. If I sit on the floor she just sits in my lap and won’t play or anything. We went to playgroup a record 3 times this week to try and get her away from me and she just climbed all over me and whined.

Mornings are the worst – not matter what I do she screams the whole time I’m making breakfast. Like throwing herself on the floor in front of the toaster oven like it’s the end of the world. I started giving her snacks thinking she was starving, but it made no difference. Meltdowns at playgroup, screaming at Phil when he gets home and tries to take her – just awful.

So this morning she throws her head back and the poor child cut two molars. I felt like shit because 1) she got no pain relief from us (besides the amber necklace) since we didn’t know and 2) I assumed she was just being a jerk and was annoyed with her. How was I supposed to know she was getting molars – she doesn’t even have her incisors or canines yet!

At playgroup today she melted down and someone jokingly said she was a real drama queen and I teared up. So overwhelmed and hormonal. Julie (group leader for the last year) came around and asked me what was going on and all I got out was "I don’t want to talk about it" before I started crying. I hate crying and I hate crying in public even more. So I spilled all my guilt over the teeth thing and how horrible she has been all week and how sleep deprived and hormonal I’ve been. Still felt stupid, but a little better anyway. Julie told me she understood and that she almost left her 18 month old at the grocery store so she understood the need for a break lol.

Oh and then this conversation happens at work….I was only half listening (wish I’d gotten it all) but a certain someone was going on about helping his BIL get over a married woman and how he told him he’d been there and smoked a lot of pot (and blah blah whatever else) and it took awhile but he got over it. That was were I tuned in fully, when I realized we may or may not be talking about me. Then I get "How long does it take you to get over guys? I bet it’s really fast, huh?" Really? Are we REALLY talking about this? We’re going to be all taxi cab confessions before too long here. So many weird questions and bold statements lately.

I just need SLEEP. Fah-reaking pregnancy insomnia. And Riley getting up at 6 AM every day since our trip – not a fan.

It’s not all bad. Riley is all about hugs and kisses lately, soooooo affectionate! This little boy at the Friday group is a lover, as they put it, he kisses everyone. He was all up in my lap snuggling and giving me kisses today when Riley turned around and I expected a screech. Instead she goes "ooooooh" and runs over to give kisses to the little guy lol. Then another boy accidentally poked her in the eye and when his mom told him to say sorry and give her a hug she lit up and kissed him too haha. Getting ready to leave I asked if she could say goodbye to another boy (they were sharing Goldfish) and she blew him a kiss. My child gets around. She was even flirting for snacks! Her friend had Pirate’s Booty and she kept going up to him and just smiling her huge cheesy smile and he gave her one every time. Really? Flirting for snacks at 16 months? Maybe I’m not the best role model for this child haha.

Oh well.