07/24/2013

Ughhh!

I hurt my back on Sunday!!!  I was vacuuming and doing chores and I went to move my coffee table and the next though I know my lower back is in EXTREME pain!  My lower back hurts me a lot, so I figured it would just go away quickly but noooo…as the day went on I could barely bend over or move without crying in pain.  Sleeping was almost impossible.  Monday I called off work and went to the Dr.  He said he thinks I pulled a muscle and gave me pain meds and muscle relaxers.  If it’s not better in a week I’ll probably have to go in for X-Rays.  =( FML!  I just want it to be better.  I worked half the day yesterday then went home and today I’m working again.  It sucks being in pain no matter what I do…sit, lay down, stand.  Meh.  And while being on these meds is fun in a way, it sure sucks trying to concentrate at work!!!

Anyway.

Mike and I talked a bit this weekend, but he was in a bad mood and didn’t much feel like talking.  I got mad at him Saturday cuz he said he was going to call me after work and never did.  I finally text him at like 1 a.m. my time and asked him if he was home yet and he said yeah he had been home a few hours but just didn’t want to talk.  I was like gee thanks for letting me know, not like I was sitting here waiting on you to call or anything! Grr!  Then last night I got mad at him again because he said he would call when he woke up and he never did.  I finally text him like way way later on at night and he said he was busy promoting and then going out with his friends so he probably couldn’t call.  Then he got mad at me for getting mad and said I can’t get pissed at him for not calling and blah blah.  Instead of a big fight we actually just talked it out and I’m really happy about that.  I told him I just didn’t know how he felt about me and it was starting to seem like he didn’t want to talk to me.  He said it sucks cuz we live 2,000 miles apart but he does like me and wants to get to know me and visit, but neither of us are in a position to make it any more than that.  I told him I was moving home so that I could pay off my debts and move out of St. Louis…whether that be to Sacramento (him) or somewhere else.  But we would never know if either of us even wants me to move there unless we keep getting to know each other and visit.  He said he agrees but he doesn’t want either of us to put our lives on hold (I assume that means he still wants freedom to sleep with other people…) and I said I didn’t want that either.  He said he doesn’t want to feel like he has to call me every day since we aren’t in a "normal" relationship, but that he does text me every day and I said that’s fine and I didn’t expect him to call every day.  I said it’s nice that he does text every day cuz I like knowing he’s thinking of me.  Then I said I guess that was kind of relationship like too, sorry and he said no it’s not and he likes knowing I’m thinking of him too.  He said he would work on not promising me he will call if he thinks he might not be able to or he will let me know ahead of time if something comes up and he can’t call.  I said I will work on not always expecting him to call but just being glad when he can.  =)  We both said we were happy we talked about it instead of just being mad.  Honestly this just made me like him even more.  I feel like I’ve been searching for a guy who is actually willing to talk about feelings and work things out rather than just being mad and pissy with each other.  It’s been a very long time, if ever, that I have met a guy like that.  He does always text me when he says he will, which I love!  Whenever I ask him to text me when he gets home from work or going out (so I know he made it home ok!) he always does, no matter what time it is…super sweet of him! <3 He took today off to go to the Dr. and he’s already text me from there and we are supposed to talk when I get home from work so yayyyyyyy! =D

My mom tried getting me to come by after I went to the Dr. Monday but I pretended like I was already on my way home so I wouldn’t have to.  I know she only did that because my dad told her too, but whatever.  I’m not ready to talk about all that bs with her yet.  I just need to work on not letting it bother me.  

Happy Hump Day!!!!!!!!!

<3!