07/01/2013

I always feel overwhelmed when I come to this blank screen.  I am having  a hard time getting my thoughts out lately.

I have not heard from Brad really at all.  I am working VERY hard on LETTING GO…but the only downfall is that I will be at Tomorrowworld with him at the end of September.  I guess I just have to accept the situation for what it is now and prepare for the feelings to come back then.  I don’t know what else to do.  I’m sick to death of all my thoughts being about HIM!  I don’t want to think about him or miss him or long for him anymore.  I don’t want to question his feelings for me.  It’s hard to stop doing these things…but I just have to focus on it and change my thoughts to other more positive things when I feel them slipping.  I won’t say it doesn’t hurt though.  

In other news…I have met a new guy…but that’s all I’m going to say about it now because I don’t want to jinx it.  

Grace came out Friday and we went to the casino and a hookah bar.  It was fun.  =) I went over there Saturday for a bit and we had a small bonfire.  Good times.

Nothing much else is going on really.  Trying to decide if I want to sign another year’s lease or not.  Mine is up at the end of August.  They want an extra 50 a month to do a 6 month lease and an extra 100 a month to do a month to month lease.  FUCK THAT!  I’m also worried that my rent will go up even if I do sign another year’s lease because I got my current rate on a special deal.  I guess I’ll have to go ask before I make any decisions.  I don’t think I could afford to live there if it goes up any more.  I really want to move back home (kind of) just to save money…BUT my brother and his girlfriend are probably going to be moving in there until the house they want to buy is ready.  I feel that would be a little much for me to deal with so yeah……..meh I hate being a grown up sometimes.

Happy Monday!
 

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