06/12/2013
laundryjust need to fold the last loadattempt to pluck eyebrowsthey were WAYYYY too bad for me to pluck them, so I just went and had them waxed at Ulta. They look nice =)go tanning- dishes –DO TONIGHT
pay billsprint tickets for spring awakening-put w/Brad’s–do not forget to pack them!- pedicure–probably will give up on this one. the only person who will see my toes is Brad anyway and he’s seen them with shitty almost worn off polish before =P
OMGGGGG work is soooooooo boring lately. Seriously I can’t handle it. And doing this credit time is just making it worse. But at least I have a job…must remember that. One that gives me tons of opportunities for vacation time too.
I don’t have too much to say really.
Tonight I have to pack! That always stresses me out. I used to LOVE packing and making lists but now I’m just like fuck what should I bring? What if I need this or that and I don’t have it? Not to mention the fact that I have 2 costumes, 2 pairs of furry boots & 4 different furry hoods and I can never decide which ones I want to wear. Since I’m riding up there with other people I want to try really hard not to over pack but FUCK! Impossible. LoL.
Even though Brad hasn’t been talking to me much lately I’m excited to see him tomorrow. I’ll try not to talk about him too much anymore. I need to focus back on myself…I got a little roped in I guess when I spent so much time with him at EDC. It’s going to be hard to leave him again…I just have to stay positive like he says. I really just need to put an end to this whole thing because I don’t know if my sensitive emotions can handle it. Something I keep thinking about, but just can’t bear to do it. I just wish I knew how he HONESTLY felt about me…because he tells me all these sweet things when we are together (like how every time he leaves me he leaves a part of himself with me), but then he never says stuff like that when we come home. The second day back after EDC he said he missed me, but he usually never says things like that. I don’t know if it’s because he likes to focus more on the positive things or if he just doesn’t miss me. I don’t know if all my anxieties about our "relationship" come from my twisted head and lack of self-esteem or if it’s real. It’s hard not to analyze and think about it all. HOW do people just GO WITH THE FLOW? I wish I could do that =( That’s what I’ve been working on figuring out…just a long ,hard road I guess.
Ohhh I forgot to mention I hurt my Achille’s somehow when I was at EDC. It hurts to walk, and especially to go up and down stairs and to drive. =/ I hope it doesn’t get worse this weekend at the festival!
Guess I’ll go do some more "work"…2.5 hours left to go. Tomorrow I’m working 6-noon then heading to the next town over to hitch a ride to Chicago with some friends. Brad’s flight doesn’t get in til 8:15 at night so I probably won’t see him til 10 or so by the time he gets to the hotel.
Happy Hump Day!!!
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