Ultrasound
So Jasper had his ultrasound on the lump this morning. (If you’re just joining me, head one entry back for further information).
Before we walked into the hospital I told Nathan, "Oh man, I hope it’s not one of those things where they do the ultrasound and then you gotta sit around and wait for the results for days! I don’t think I could handle that!"
"I’m sure that’s what we’re going to have to do," he said.
And we were both right. It was a pretty basic ultrasound exam, with the tech not really able to say anything except, "I see what I need to see," which made me think inside my head. WHAT?! THAT IT’S PERFECTLY NORMAL, RIGHT!? Tell me!" But instead I just nodded and the pit of my stomach turned more knowing that we wouldn’t have any more answers than we had going in and I was going to have to wait by the phone for the next week.
When she first looked at it and felt it she said, "hmm it is hard" and then she asked if he had bumped himself lately or if it could have been a bug bite. That’s the extent of the information we got. She spent about 3 minutes taking measurements of it and I couldn’t tell what anything was on the screen.
So I guess I’m going to have to work really hard to stay distracted and not think about it until I find out more information. We will have a busy weekend ahead of us to take up my time just in case we don’t hear until next week. The cousins are up today and my brother and his family happen to be coming on Friday afternoon. At least Jasper continues to act completely normal and is oblivious to everything and looks and acts completely healthy. He’s eating fine, nursing fine, playing fine, and even taking more steps at a time every day. If you take off his shirt and look really close, you can see the bump sticking out of his skin. If you press down on the skin around it, it definitely has a defined shape. It isn’t rock hard, but it’s pretty firm, yet you can move it around underneath the skin.
Ugh.. I wish I could just turn off the bad thoughts swirling around my head, things I don’t even want to think or say out loud. Why must we always go to the worst case scenario? As some of you pointed out, no matter what, we are going to get HELP and we will do whatever it takes to get this thing taken care of as soon as possible.
Keep the prayers coming!
You’re doing EVERY single thing right, love! Having this checked so quickly is HUGE, and no matter what it ends up being, there’s nothing like being on top of things to create an awesome outcome ♥
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The waiting is so hard. Stay strong – we’re here for you!
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Oh Meg, scary, but just don’t sit there and stew about worse-case scenarios or anything! I have a scar on my arm from having a similar-sounding lump removed. It was either a calcium or fat deposit (Can’t remember which). VERY common and NOTHING to worry about! I’m glad you have stuff coming up this weekend to distract you, thinking of you guys!
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I’m praying right along with you Mama! I know it’s terrifying. I hate this for you, I wouldn’t wish the agony of not-knowing on anyone. When Collin was sick his White Blood Cell counts kept coming up super high. After calling in everyone else and ruling things out, they called in the Hematology team. I thought nothing of that, I know, they are blood specialists, they’ll figure it out…
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My mind didn’t even go to the “c” word, until they flat out told me that’s what they were looking for. Then came the terror! Thankfully, they know you’re worried and anxious. Hopefully given that, they’ll get back to you quickly with results! In the meantime, like you said, keep yourself busy and distracted. Wish I could give you a giant hug!
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My son had a small lump on his face a couple months ago. Similar to Jasper’s lump…firm but not hard. His skin was discolored a bit, almost like the beginning of a zit and would get darker and lighter. His doc didn’t know what it was. They removed & tested it and it was…..a CYST! Completely benign! I don’t know if this will help at all since its not YOUR kid but….I hope it eases your worry some!
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Just caught up on both entries. I am praying for him and you. Hang in there, Mama. Sending {{{{{HUGS}}}}}
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oy vey the waiting
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All my thoughts with you and your family, I hope you hear news sooner rather than later
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Oh Megan so sorry you’re having such a scare! Please keep us up to date on Jasper! Hugs!!!
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Worst case scenario worrying is natural… I’m experiencing that a lot right now! Fingers crossed the ultrasound results confirm it’s nothing worrying. I think if she had seen something concerning you would get a call very quickly. X
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You are an amazing mom!!
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Keep us posted! There is a reason you don’t want techs telling you what they think – they aren’t always right. I am sorry that you have to wait though.
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The not knowing & waiting is so hard! I am keeping you all in my thoughts & prayers.
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I think all mothers will immediately worry and think of the worst case scenarios. We’ll be praying for you!
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