Suddenly…Grown Up?

Today I feel… grown up.

We signed the lease on our new place this afternoon, and I wrote out a check for the deposit. Suddenly, I was hit with the realization that this was now real. I know I’ve written about it before, but I am really up for some changes this summer.

And I hope I’m ready for them.

I have mixed feelings about it. It’s like I’m slowly letting go of my entire life up until now. I’m not going to be the farm girl who spends her summer working at the local golf course and bringing supper to the fields. I’m not going to have that spacious backyard with my beloved trails in the woods to escape from every evening before the sun goes down. I’ll be lucky if I even get to clean them out this spring…

“Mel, it’s ours! I can’t believe it’s ours,” I repeated as we walked out of the office into the bright haze of snow and parking lots.

“I know, but we’ve got so much to do. We have to prove that we can handle this,” she said.

“Yeah. That’s true. Think about it… it’s like we’ve just entered a whole new phase of our lives,” I pondered, my mind drifting. For some reason, I thrilled at the opportunity of spending the summer away from home. It was incredibly scary and exciting at the same time. I felt as if I were testing the waters of life truly on my own. For some reason, the first year of college wasn’t quite as real because I was still living in the dorms. Still going home every few weeks. Still living with my parents in the summer.

Things are going to be different now.

I’ve got so much to prove to myself and my parents. I’ve got to get that job. I’ve got to look at internships. I’ve got to find time to still go home, and time to head to Sunset Lodge. I want to be every bit of the independant person I have to be someday. Eventually. This is just the first step.

Wow…

Did I mention I feel grown up today?

Wow, it looks really nice. A place like that in my area would be very, very expensive! Sorry I haven’t left notes on the other pages, but OD is very slow tonight with note-leaving, and my patience is wearing thin!

Congratulations! Growing up is sad but it’s cool at the same time. I’ll miss the old but embrace the new. Have fun!

OHH, wow, congratulations!! that looks so cool, girl..i am too big of a baby to get out on my own like that right now..actually, i don’t want the bills either lol..i am so happy for you 🙂

Wow, that is really nice. I bet you’re gonna love it. I know you will. Love,

Congratulations–it looks very nice. I’d love my own place….one of these days. 🙂

Wow, I’m impressed, getting an apartment is definitely a big step in life. You should be proud and should feel grown up. Don’t worry about not being around, everyone gets busy. But anyway, good luck with the job/roommate hunting!

It looks beautiful:)

~smile~ That place looks (and sounds!) spectacular. I’m sure you can do it! You’re strong. +offers a smile+ I’m out next year, but still under the protection of parents. On my own, living costs paid, meals made. +nods+ Good deal, I appreciate it. +smirk+ Best of luck, and smiles all around.

Woo! 🙂 Congrats…. that is amazingly cool. You have entered into a legal binding contract as an adult… so now if you and your roomies fail to pay rent, you can be sued! Oh, happy day! 🙂 Nevermind… ignore me. That is SO amazingly cool… and it looks like a decent apartment complex. You even have a place to drop water balloons on people….

Wow thats a pretty place!

Hey – the place looks really great, Meg. I wish I had my own place. :o) Hope everything works out for you for the summer and everything. I’m sorry to hear about your weekend, but I’m glad you seem to be feeling better now. Take it easy!

now that is a boss joint…this is a big step, yes…but you’ll do well 🙂 you have more common sense (to me, anyway) than a lot of adults that i know. you will do just fine *grin*