Short, but not sweet…

Fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck. Fucking fuck my whole fucking life. FUCK.

Jackson, the 7 year old we babysit, won’t be coming over anymore during the day for us to babysit. His mom left me a message at 730 am saying "I know this is REALLY short notice, but Jackson won’t be needing daycare anymore, we had.. a bit of a surprise this weekend… so he won’t be coming anymore. You can call me later to let me know how much I owe you for last week, and I will try to come by tonight after work to pay you. Sorry. Thanks again. Bye. " 

FUCK.

That’s $500 of the $1100 a month that I make. I was counting on getting paid today so I could go get my car back from the shop. It’s only $273, for crying out loud. Is there a number to cal to ask Oprah to bail you out??  FUCK.

Kasin’s bike also got stolen on Friday at THE LIBRARY, of all the ridiculous things in the world. I was so upset. It’s a brand new bike that Gma Julie’s boyfriend bought him from a used sports store. Kasin was supposed to pay him back the $80 for it. I had promised him we would go look at WalMart for a new bike when we got paid this week. And a bike lock. 

We have the bare minimum on groceries, we’ll get through the week.. Ross gets paid on Wed, but we’re a good $1500 behind on rent right now, and that doesn’t even count July’s rent. I called our realtor today and talked to the admin about our situation and let her know that we are trying to take out a loan to pay up on rent, but that it’s going to be another week or so before we can get everything together and come in to pay them. She made some notes in our file and said she’d talk to the lady who manages our property to let her know. UGH. We paid just over half of May’s rent, nothing in June, and so far nothing for July. It’s like sinking in quick sand.

FUCK.

Ross is taking his sweet time going to the bank and talking to a loan officer, refuses to make an appointment, huffs and puffs about the whole ordeal.. I mean, I understand that it’s stressful, but it’s sort of what we’re going to have to do, or else move to the homeless shelter. K? K. Yeah. Awesome. FUCK.

~ Me