Nausea (TMI, super girly entry.)

 Ugh I’ve been having birth control drama, I think.

I have the copper IUD, paragard. Before I had  Kasin, I used the patch birth control, and I LOVED it. After I had him, I tried the shot and didnt like it, I felt like a lunatic lol.. super moody and angry and mean… and then I went back to the patch for a long time, I really liked the patch. Anyways, When I moved to Petersburg with Jared, I stopped using anything, and I was hoping to have another baby before Kasin turned 3. Obviously that didn’t happen, and I still don’t know if it had to do with me or with Jared, but it turned out to be a good thing, anyways.. I wasn’t having a period hardly ever once I got off my birth control, first it was every other month, then every three months, and then every four months… And they would be really horrible and heavy when they did happen, because they were so infrequent.

When Kasin and I moved back to Fairbanks and once we moved back here, I started seeing my doctor and she decided that I wasn’t ovulating, and that my hormones were all whacky and I was also insulin resistant and needed to take Metformin. Once I started that, I was back to having regular periods, and I started taking birth control again, but I dont actually remember what kind it was, but I was really concerned about it because I didn’t want to have to take birth control in order to ovulate, because then what would the point be when I wanted to have more kids?? How would THAT work out? eventually I started using the Nuva Ring, which was alright, but not my favorite thing in the world… it was easy and low maintenance, so that was my deciding factor. My doctor was hoping that the Nuva Ring and Metformin would regulate my hormones and things, which it seemed to, and I was having regular periods like a normal person, and they were short and easy to deal with.

The very next month after I stopped using my Nuva Rings, I got pregnant with Milo. Since having Milo, I had NO period until he was about a year old. I’m not sure if it’s because I was breastfeeding him or because my body is outta whack again.

In any event, I got the Paragard IUD at my 6week post-partum check up (which was actually like 8 weeks after I had Milo, and I probably bled post-partum for about 6 weeks, as well.) and then never had a period until last February. It was EPIC. For like four to six weeks, I was soaking through a Super Plus tampon AND a pad in two hours. I had to change pants like three times a day because I would just gush blood through everything. It was AWFUL. And then the next period was heavy, but much more normal than that one, still heavy and long (like two weeks) but MUCH better than that first one. My OB/GYN nurse told me that the first one was probably just so bad since it was the first once since I stopped breastfeeding and since I’d had Milo, etc etc.. okay, no big deal. 

SINCE THEN, however, I still have totally long, heavy, horrible periods. I’ve also gained like 80 pounds since I had Milo, which is also totally lame and I’m super uncomfortable in my skin, like just not able to do the things I’m used to being able to do, can’t reach and bend like I want to, etc… anyways, my skin is also SUPER bad and I’ve been breaking out a LOT, and my hair has been extra greasy, too. It’s just nasty.. and then add on the really lame periods, which sometimes last so long that there really is no break between periods, I just have heavy spotting from the end of one to the beginning of the next one. Sometimes I’ll luck out and get a fairly chill one, like two weeks of light bleeding instead of three or six weeks of HEAVY bleeding…

Anyways, this CAN’T be normal, can it? I remember my OB/GYN telling me that sometimes IUDs make your periods heavier, but this is CRAZY. So, with all of this, plus the fact that I have been SERIOUSLY getting MORNING SICKNESS every day for a month or two now, and I’m just baffled. This has to be all hormonal, right? I’m obviously not pregnant, because I’m gushing blood VERY REGULARLY, and I have an IUD, so the chances of that are WAY slim (lol, Beth Anne, I will never not think of you when I say that I can’t be pregnant since I have an IUD…. little determined Caelen!) and with all the bleeding, I’m pretty sure that even if I were just getting pregnant it would also be terminating itself regularly, as well, because if I were just pregnant with all this bleeding going on, something would be awfully wrong with the pregnancy. lol

ANYWAYS, this nausea thing is killing me, I feel seriously sick and pukey for the first few hours of each day, and it’s not cool. No one enjoys being nauseas, but I feel like I especially put in my time already when I was pregnant with Milo and couldn’t even keep down water for 8 months…. so this is just super annoying, plus I’m worried that it’s all inter-connected and there’s something else going on.. so, despite not having any insurance, I’ve tracked down the OB/GYN that I went to when I was pregnant with Milo (she moved to a new office) and made an appointment with her in November, she starts at her new office on the 1st and I think my appointment is the 12th or something like that.. it’s programmed into my phone. Hopefully she will run some labs and I will get some answers. I’m not sure if I need to go back on the Metformin or what, but I’m also super concerned about all the weight gain, it seems to just keep packing on, despite the fact that I’m eating less now that I’m feeling sick all the time, and I honestly just don’t have time to be counting calories or really tracking my food..

I literally hop from one activity to the next all week long. Mondays I work from 7-9, I usally have either appointment or homework time from 9-12, and then Im back at work until 6. After work, I run across town to drop off the kids at home with Ross, and then I have my one night on SANITY with Heather, we go out to dinner or to the store for salad bar or something, we hang out and we eat, we go to movies or events, we just have peace and quiet, and I come home once the kids are in bed. It’s amazing. On Wed night I have a class, on Tue Wed and Thur I have class from 915-1115 am during my 3 hour break from work, and I still work 7-9 and 12-6 each day. I never see Kasin, his grandma drops him off and picks him up for me, he comes to work after school but I still barely see him when I’m there, because I’m in the nursery in the afternoons and he obviously isn’t. 

Anyways, we don’t do too badly for dinners, we make a meat and a side (noodles or rice) and a veggie and have a fruit with every meal, we do tend to eat ice cream once the kids are in bed and we’re hanging out watching TV, but I’m not necessarily looking to cut all treats out of my life, I feel like I eat a pretty balanced diet, far too balanced to be packing weight on like I have been.. so hopefully my OB/GYN has some ideas and can help me figure out what’s going on and fix it 🙁 

I’ve been getting migraines, too, which is the worst.. usually during my math class, I think it’s related to the lights in that classroom. Ugh.

Was this just a lot of whining? Sorry, guys.. I rarely write at all, and then when I do I spend the whole time whining incessantly about shit no one cares about lol… sometimes when I start writing, I just can’t stop.
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Bonus for hanging in there: Pictures of Milo in his Ewok costume for Halloween

 He doesnt really like it

 I bribed him with M&Ms

 cute cute 🙂

~Meee