well, would you?

If there was a piece of paper that had your future written on it, would you look? I don’t mean like whole future..like when your going to die or all of that..more like where your love life would lead you.

I think I would. What if you put all of your energy into something that you want so badly to work..and then it’s the wrong person?

I know, this is a stupid question. And ‘life is about learning’ bla bla bla

But what if you are sure and someone else isnt as sure as you are?

And yes, I know I am due for an actual REAL update. I hope to get around to it soon.

I am having some scary health stuff going on. And I feel like since I don’t have cancer, it isn’t really up there on the list of things to be worried about. But we live together so that should be enough? I get confused by that sometimes.

I crave conversation.

Did you watch The Office tonight? Jim and Pam..that is where it is at right there.

He wrote that on my Christmas card last year. "You are the Beesely to my Halpert.

I had a dream where he decided he could take care of her and her kid, and then he left me. It was a sad dream.

it used to bug me when Turi would poke and poke at me until I finally said what was bugging me..until I talked through it. I miss that. I know people can’t talk all day everyday..but I love to talk. At least sometimes.

Music makes me feel great. I wish Look Book was still together.

Done.

Don’t worry, you won’t get a journal update notification for this.

Heart Center tomorrow. I am way nervous.

K, now I’m done.